Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 6:31 am Post subject: HOLY ADGLKNDGASLNDSG;LNFASKMB DGAJBDGJN
Hollyann just asked me if I wanted to go to the movies with her on valentines day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN'T EVEN TALK TO HER IN PERSON HOW AM I GONNA GO TO THE MOVIES WITH HER???? OF COURSE I WANT TO GO BUT I'M SCARED OUT OF MY MIND JUST THINKING ABOUT IT!!!!I'M LITERALLY SHAKING IN FEAR RIGHT NOW AS I TYPE THIS!!!!!! SHE'S WAITING FOR AN ANSWER....WHAT AM I GONNA SAY? IF I SAY YES THEN I HAVE TO GO AND IF I SAY NO THEN SHE WILL HATE ME EVEN THO I REALLY DO WANT TO GO....WHAT AM I GONNA DO??????????????
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THE FEAR IS BEATING ME LIKE A DOG AND I'M ROLLING OVER AND TAKING IT!!!!!!!I CAN'T EVEN GO TO THE MOVIES DAMMIT!!!!!I HAVEN'T BEEN TO THE MOVIES SINCE I WAS A LITTLE KID!!!I NEVER EVEN BUY ANYTHING MYSELF I ALWAYS MAKE MY MOM DO IT!!!!GODDDDD...SHE'S WAITING FOR AN ANSWERRRRRRRR
Alright the shaking has lessened. We always regret what we didn't do more than what we did do. Nothing ventured nothing gained... I just put the title of an old book in my signature..Health, Strength and Will Power....Fear not gods nor fates nor anything....I'm going to tell her yess....What would I rather have done when I'm 80 years old laying in bed before I die...Maxick had some very moving words that he wrote on a piece of paper as he was dying...something about will and life...I wish I had it..
I'm at my post limit so I'll just keep editing.... I said "Sure. What do you want to see?" Now the shaking has stopped and I'm wondering what I've just done...Let the fear be for the dogs....I'm a man you know?
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be thou therefore without fear for in the heart of the coward virtue abideth not.
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Posted: Mon Feb 12, 2007 7:05 am Post subject:
Hey, good luck. Im glad you said yes to her. The bright side is, a movie makes it so there's about 2 hours of no talking, just watching the movie, and then afterward, you have something to talk about (the movie you just saw!). Pick something you're dying to see, and go for it. I wish you the best.
You know its like I can either be who I WANT to be or I can be a scared little thing that runs away.
You know whats funny? I made a post on myspace on halloween night saying what a good night it was and how much I wished I was at the movies with friends instead of sitting on my ass at home
It just seems so strange. Out of the blue a girl asks me if I want to go to the movies with her on valentines day when I really hardly know her. Plus the fact she knows I'm too shy to talk to her even in a somewhat normal setting for me.
You know my moms gonna be more surprised than I am
Bla damn post limit...She just sent me a message wanting me to call her...The phone isn't working so I can't...But she's gonna think I'm lying when I say that...
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Fear not at all; fear neither men nor Fates, nor gods, nor anything
be thou therefore without fear for in the heart of the coward virtue abideth not.
I found the words I was looking for...brings tears to my eyes
"I only meet him after his death. He was lying on the floor of his room on his back with his hands stretched out. Under his right heel we found a slip of paper with is last remarks. It read "May 10th 1961, 22 hours; my heart is beating rather slow, I feel extremely cold, I think it will be over soon. Remember the infinite is our inner freedom manifested through our consciousness Max Sick mastered his body and his five senses till the last moment and lived up to his idea not to lose control even during the last moments of life.
Here's a picture of Maxick
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Fear not at all; fear neither men nor Fates, nor gods, nor anything
be thou therefore without fear for in the heart of the coward virtue abideth not.
I just realised we both have all star practice until 5 anyway if she shows up. I should probably send her a message making sure she shows up. But Hannibal Rising doesn't even start until 6:45
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Fear not at all; fear neither men nor Fates, nor gods, nor anything
be thou therefore without fear for in the heart of the coward virtue abideth not.
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Posted: Tue Feb 13, 2007 12:34 pm Post subject:
Man, I totally want to see that movie; im so jealous lol
some more good news; if she knows about your SA before you go out, that should make her much more understanding and easy to get along with. at least for me, if someone knows about it, i dont feel pressured to say something in moments when I normally would be silent.
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