Joined: Jul 29, 2004 Posts: 21 Location: United Kingdom
Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2005 12:30 am Post subject: It's 2005 !!!! What do YOU plan to do this year ?
Soooo,
Anybody got any plans for this year, or are we all going to do what im probably going to do which is stay the same and not change anything for the better ?.
Like resolutions? I SHOULD quit smoking... it's VERY expensive & certainly NOT in MY extremely limited income..-ell, my income is so 'modest' it practically stays hidden! My income has SP worse than I do! Smoking makes my clothing and me smell like an ashtray--yulk..a health risk factor... but despite all the negative things about it... I CRAVE the things desperately. I could toss my anti depressants, etc. way quicker than even a few cigs. I read somewhere that cigarette smoking and SP might be linked in some way. Anyone else heard/read about that? And with that all said... I shall go light up. sighhhh
BTW... Anyone know of anyone personally that has/had lung cancer or cancer from smoking?
Yeh, my nan died of lung cancer after smoking most of her life.
and to answer the other question, I'm looking to move away from the area i'm in, I live in a small town where everyone knows everyone else and hate anyone different, Hence a lot of bullying in my life and now its about time I got out and made a fresh start.
Like resolutions? I SHOULD quit smoking... it's VERY expensive & certainly NOT in MY extremely limited income..-ell, my income is so 'modest' it practically stays hidden! My income has SP worse than I do! Smoking makes my clothing and me smell like an ashtray--yulk..a health risk factor... but despite all the negative things about it... I CRAVE the things desperately. I could toss my anti depressants, etc. way quicker than even a few cigs. I read somewhere that cigarette smoking and SP might be linked in some way. Anyone else heard/read about that? And with that all said... I shall go light up. sighhhh
BTW... Anyone know of anyone personally that has/had lung cancer or cancer from smoking?
I would not be surprized at all, to find out that SP and any drug addiction are related.
Well, I think I am doing better and hopefully one day I will be completely cured of this stupid SP. Yes, it has been difficult. Nothing worth doing is ever that easy. I had to force myself to go out and be around people. I started with forcing myself to spend a few minutes out and added aditional minutes each day.
Now, I am finally working 8 hours a day. Not bad. But I still do have anxiety. Though, I force myself to face my fear each day and I think it is working. Yes, I am also taking some medication, Paxil, to help me out. But I took it before without any good results, because I did not force myself to face my fears. Now, I am trying hard to face my fears, along with taking the medication, and I am having good results.
My goals for the coming year are:
1) loose 30 pounds,
2) exersice 3 to 5 times a day,
3) stay away from junk,
4) keep working on my fears,
5) stop caring so much about what others think of me,
6) go back to school.
Joined: Nov 22, 2004 Posts: 43 Location: United States of America
Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2005 2:22 am Post subject:
I'm going to cure myself- completely. I feel like I've got all the tools under my belt, and I've even got some professional help. My goal this year is to start up a daily meditation practice and that should help too. I'd also like to make a commitment to change my diet, but we'll see if that goes anywhere
Joined: Jul 29, 2004 Posts: 21 Location: United Kingdom
Posted: Sat Jan 01, 2005 2:40 am Post subject:
I hope to change this year too. I just hate the idea that everything takes effort to do, the way it takes so much courage sometimes to just do easy things like going out, talking to people or going into shops and things like that. I just wish i could do that stuff without even thinking about it, without any effort like people without SP do. Anybody understand what i mean ?.
I want to change but probably i stay depressed. To much messed up people around which act negative and fuck up the world to be acting that yuou dont see the negativity in the world. I went out thid newyearsmornging. I was really open to people and talked a bit, but for some sort of reason they just dont see me standing. Guess they dont like kind people . I dunno
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