If you're feeling like this all the time I think you need some coping mechanisms. I have an addiction to video games that I use to deal with my depression and despair. Seriously, it's not a very healthy pastime, but at least it beats craving the murder of every person on the planet.
A more healthy coping mechanism can be exercise. Apparently it is quite cathartic especially if you get into a routine.
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Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2008 8:51 am Post subject:
I think we all have moments like that. I get quiet when I do, so it doesn't lead to typing it out. I definitely understand the rage and feelings of helplessness.
The clock is ticking and here we sit... intelligent, empathetic, and talented, but effectively useless.
It can knock you on your ass if you think about it too long, and it does seem like we're misunderstood and smirked at by most of the world.
"Just snap out of it." God, how many times have I heard that? "You're like a child... stop caring about what people think." "You're self-centered!" These are things my own family have told me, for goodness sake.
I'm extremely sensitive and I bleed every day, everything pierces me and some days I just sleepwalk through the hours in a preoccupied loop. Too scared to get involved in actuality for fear of being tangled up in it.
If I really think about it, there's not a hell of a lot to be happy about, yet I still have this flame of hope. I don't know where it comes from, and I can't snuff it out, though I sometimes think it'd be best if I could.
I keep holding on, I guess it's elemental, like a self-preserving streak that keeps me from charging off the cliff's edge into despair.
What would be better if I gave up? If I'm going to be without, at least let me be without and reaching. If they're gonna kick my ass, at least I'm going to fight.
Posted: Fri Jul 25, 2008 9:55 am Post subject: Re: WE ARE FUCKED
fixusormeltinacid wrote:
SOMEBODY SHOVE A FUCKING LIVE-WIRE UP MY CEREBRAL CORTEX AND FIX THIS MOTHERFUCKING ABOMINATION OF A DISORDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BOOOOM!! IF I DON'T MURDER MYSELF ALREADY I FEAR I WILL BEAT SOMEBODY IN THE STREET UNTIL THEY DIE IN AN ACT OF JEALOUS RAGE FOR ALL THOSE BASTARD PEOPLE THAT ARE FUCKING LUCKY ENOUGH TO HOUSE NORMAL/REGULAR CLOCKWORK UNDER THOSE PRETENTIOUS FUCKING SKULL-CAPS THE IGNORANT SONS OF BITCHES. I URINATE ON EVERYBODY THAT THINKS THEY HAVE IT ROUGH BUT HAVE NOTHING WRONG WITH THEIR FUCKING SUB-AVERAGE SPAGHETTI DEPOSITS. I HOPE EVERYONE ON THIS ROTTING PLANET SUFFERS SEVERE OCD IN AN INSTANT AND THE WHOLE WORLD PANICS LIKE I DO SO SOME ACTUAL FUCKING EFFORT WILL BE PUT INTO SOLVING THIS RIDICULOUS DISGUSTING DISEASE!! DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CUNT !!!!!!!!!!!!
FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK I WANT TO DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IF I HAD THE MEANS I WOULD NUKE THIS FUCKING IGNORANT PLANET TO SHIT-DUST!
FUUUUUUUUUUUCK I HATE THE HUMAN RACE AND THEIR GENETIC FLAWS!!!!!!!!!! KILL ALL RELIGIOUS FUCK-WITS MURDER THEM ALL GENOCIDE MOTHERFUCKERS DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE! RIP THE HOLY HEAD OF THE FUCKING POPE, THE DUMB-SHIT CELEBRITY FOR COCKSUCKING FAIRYTALERS.
WE WILL ALL DIE FOR NOTHING!! THERE IS NO HOPE, EMPTY SHITHOLES, THE HUMAN RACE IS OUTTA' GAS!!!
WE ARE ALL GOING TO FUCKING ROT IN DARKNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SELFISH ORGANIC WASTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
DESTROY THE FUCKING LOT OF US!!!!!!!!! EAT SHIT AND DIE FREELOADERS!!!!
First of all... sweet.
Second of all... NICE.
Third of all... you rule and three fifths of all... I love you.
Don't worry man. I love you. seriously.
AND... you're not alone. I've been there, and I don't mean that in a Dylan-to-Brandon type of way. I totally know what you're getting at, but there is no point in getting angry. it's not going to help. anger is the opposite of what you're striving at i think.
just from the terms you used, like "jealous rage" and "lucky enough" i feel we are kindred spirits.
listen man, forget about them. think about YOU. that's really as simple as it gets.
see a therapist. i know "see a therapist" probably sounds like i'm telling you you're crazy, but i don't think of it as a crazy thing at all. in fact i think even (so-called) "normal people" should see therapists. everyone should. you learn a lot about yourself when you have someone playing devil's advocate for you.
ok i think i suffer from the worst sp in the world ......... and my thoughts on this is because its a punishment from God .......i will explain futher later.....
Posted: Sun Jul 27, 2008 9:03 am Post subject: Re: WE ARE FUCKED
LOL, haha I like the angry words in the OP. And I agree with you! Well.......
fixusormeltinacid wrote:
SOMEBODY SHOVE A FUCKING LIVE-WIRE UP MY CEREBRAL CORTEX AND FIX THIS MOTHERFUCKING ABOMINATION OF A DISORDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BOOOOM!! IF I DON'T MURDER MYSELF ALREADY I FEAR I WILL BEAT SOMEBODY IN THE STREET UNTIL THEY DIE IN AN ACT OF JEALOUS RAGE FOR ALL THOSE BASTARD PEOPLE THAT ARE FUCKING LUCKY ENOUGH TO HOUSE NORMAL/REGULAR CLOCKWORK UNDER THOSE PRETENTIOUS FUCKING SKULL-CAPS THE IGNORANT SONS OF BITCHES. I URINATE ON EVERYBODY THAT THINKS THEY HAVE IT ROUGH BUT HAVE NOTHING WRONG WITH THEIR FUCKING SUB-AVERAGE SPAGHETTI DEPOSITS. I HOPE EVERYONE ON THIS ROTTING PLANET SUFFERS SEVERE OCD IN AN INSTANT AND THE WHOLE WORLD PANICS LIKE I DO
^^atleast up to here!
Now the rest of what you said is just unfair. lol.
First of all, it's not a disgusting disease! You'd be surprised at how "normal" it is to get OCD after some kind of traumatic experience.
Second of all, nuking the planet doesn't sound like fun. You wouldn't want to live in a post-nuclear world ala Salad Fingers, would you? Then there'd be no running water, how will we OCD suffers wash our hands? :gasp:
And hard as it is to believe, there are good and kind people out there in the world. You need to keep these people around, they're vital to making our lives a little better.
Lastly, if you want to find a cure for your OCD, you need to put effort into making it happen yourself.
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