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azureclipse · Newbie User Joined: Oct 25, 2007 Posts: 5

At the moment, I'm really happy, because I have friends for the first time in god-knows-how-long.

I have no idea why they would bother to, but these people have been talking to me, asking me to sit or hang out with them, demanding me to come to the mall with them or invited me home to watch movies with them. I'm really happy because they didn't give up on me after a week, even if I didn't say much. After a year, I still don't, but they always ask me if I want to come with them if they're going anywhere. They always make sure I'm included. Later today or tomorrow, depending on the weather, I'm going with them to rent a movie. Even though I'm nervous, I'm really looking forward to it.

For the first time in a very long time, I'm truly happy.

M1tCh · Newbie User Joined: Jul 23, 2007 Posts: 55

I had a job interview Monday.

Wish me luck.

Smile

Allan · Newbie User Joined: Oct 24, 2007 Posts: 31

flake__ · Posted: Mon Nov 05, 2007 8:59 am Post subject:

^^ How did the job interview go?

I have made progress Very Happy

Not physically--my life is a mess lol--but mentally i have completely transformed since i came to this forum!!

When i first came on i was really unhappy, bitter, stuck in the negative, my sp made me feel worthless etc and just wanted to rant and vent and prove the world sucks for sp-ers lol

Now i feel totally different and this isn't a temporary thing. My mentality has changed. I feel positive and see things in a whole new light! I no longer beat myself up much at all. Yeh i get the drowning fear and despair in social situations but i just let it pass, i don't reflect that onto myself as a person and tell myself i'm a 'failure' and worthless etc. And i don't analyse everything incessantly afterwards. I just forget. I want to feel good and see the positive.

My mind is starting to work for me now! I am on my own side and this is the key to beating it.

And i think it's all thanks to these forums, research i have done and the people i've talked to so cheers Very Happy

I see the way out, just have to find the right method. I plan to be out of this within a year and if i find a 'method' that works i will surely share it with all you lovely people Razz

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Generical · Posted: Thu Nov 08, 2007 2:22 pm Post subject:

Sweet! flake_ im glad your starting to feel better i gotta agree with you just talking about stuff and finding out so much about sp is really helping. Although i wasnt too bad before i came on, sorta was already getting over it and at first the forum was reminding me too much about it and bringing it back, but now i feel its for the best to know what it is and i feel better about meself Very Happy

fibri · Newbie User Joined: Nov 13, 2007 Posts: 11

I'm going away tomorrow for a conference. I know it will feel awful, physically (shaking, palpitations, jitteriness, etc) and mentally (panic, embarassment, shyness, disconnection...)

BUT I am going to focus very hard on positive thoughts, like:

- reminding myself that I'm not a loser to be feeling this way
- only listening to positive thoughts
- remembering that even if I panic, it won't kill me!
- remembering that even if I panic, probably nobody will notice!
- remembering that I have a support line here to come back to (thank you!)
- remembering that other people in the world feel the same way I do, and no matter how bad I feel, it doesn't mean I'm crazy!
- reminding myself that it's just a couple of days - how bad can that be?

Take care everyone!

fibri · Newbie User Joined: Nov 13, 2007 Posts: 11

Back from the conference. I made it! (Of course Smile

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Just focusing on this forum really helped. Knowing that this was not me being crazy but instead a condition I have always had, that has just got out of hand in the last few years.

I know that I have always disliked social situations, always felt anxious, but I buried my fear - usually by getting drunk.

I quit drinking 16 months ago. At first it was tough, but now I'm getting used to handle social situations without alcohol. I realise that in fact alcohol did NOT help, all it did was first push me into a false cheerfulness that was still anxiety-filled, and help me forget aftrewards. Now being sober is in a way easier, because I find myself more standing back and observing the situation, rather than being really inwardly focused. And it helps me feel that at least in that respect I am fully in control of myself, which is good for my self-confidence!

So, the conference was deeply unpleasant, but not as bad as I feared. Today I'm feeling good - I'm at home, taking a day off, relaxing from my efforts of the last weeks, and feeling satisfied that I made it through a very stressful period without crashing and burning. Proud of myself and happy to have this forum to share both my success as well as my earlier dread. If I could get through the last month, I'm in a better state than I thought I was!

flake__ · Posted: Wed Nov 21, 2007 3:43 pm Post subject:

Well done fibri! I read ur post b4 u went 2 the conference was hoping it would go ok for you. Smile

It's amazing what a different state of mind can do for you isn't it.
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winnipegjets · Posted: Thu Nov 22, 2007 12:48 am Post subject:

cbazy · Newbie User Joined: Dec 11, 2007 Posts: 13

i went outside today!
i took out the garbage
and cat litter box
and checked the mail!