self harm

abc1234 · Posted: Wed Jan 04, 2006 9:21 pm Post subject:

gone

Oddball · Posted: Fri Jan 06, 2006 10:33 am Post subject:

A few years ago I took about 30 klonopin at one time, I was high for about 2 weeks straight, after coming down off of them the withdrawl was so horrible that I cut myself a number of times and I threw things and yelled at my whole family, I havent cut myself since then ever, it was my first and only time, yet now when I look at the scars I get depressed and wonder how I could have done that to my myself and my family on top of that It's made my SA worse because I'm so self concious about anyone seeing it, I seriously hope the scars don't stay there forever because I hate being reminded of what happend.

feelinghelpless · Newbie User Joined: Feb 05, 2006 Posts: 1

I know exactly what you mean! I guess you could say I am a cutter, whenever i get really depressed i usually get a razor and cut my right wrist a bunch. It sounds wierd but it makes me feel like i have control of something because i sure as hell dont have control of my SA and it's so frustrating sometimes. Rolling Eyes

Angie_05 · Posted: Mon Feb 06, 2006 2:36 am Post subject:

I think the cause of self harm is similar to those of us who binge eat. When I feel intense pressure or I feel that I am just no good I will go buy a bunch of chocolate, like the highest calorie chocolate i can find, and eat a bunch of it all at once until I can't stand to eat it anymore. I dont know why I do it though because normally I watch what I eat pretty closely and am afraid of gaining weight. It doesn't fix the problem or make me feel better afterward. But that moment that I am compulsively eating, it's like the world goes away and I no longer feel the pressure. Of course it all comes right back once I've finished.

Septor · Elite User Joined: Dec 15, 2005 Posts: 1033

So sad

but every one finds way cope with the pain some just cut.

DemonDayz · Posted: Tue Mar 21, 2006 4:46 am Post subject:

Trying to understand best I can, although since I've never done it I'm sure I can't say what's best, but have you ever beating the crap out of a physical object? Maybe just a pillow or something? I know it sounds stupid but its a great way to release stress, and still feel in control, without harming yourself. (I have harmed myself, just never cut.)

DemonDayz · Posted: Tue Mar 21, 2006 4:59 am Post subject:

MrRightNow · Posted: Tue Mar 21, 2006 7:00 am Post subject:

Excuse me for cutting in, but abc1234 just may have a point.

Hellraising · Intermediate User Joined: Apr 07, 2005 Posts: 260

I used to cut myself. I felt that it helped me relief the pain and the anger. I did it to show the world that I was hurting, but I would never show anyone my scars, so I don't know how that would work out. I used to love the attention I get when I tell people over the net that I cut myself, and love that they try to stop me. I felt cared for, and that I matter.

So here I am, trying to make you stop cutting yourself, whether you like it or not. Here's a plea to you and all the other cutters. Please don't harm yourself anymore. You are so much more worthy of that. Yes, I know that your are hurting on the inside, but this is not the way to deal with it. Please try and talk to someone about this and not keep your feeling pent up. Cutting would only dig your deeper into the ground. It is only a temporary fix to your problem. Life can be so much better for you. It starts with you. You have to make the decision to stop.

If you ever want to talk, here's my email - hellraising88@gmail.com