What are you're obsessions ?

of_darkness · Posted: Tue Feb 20, 2007 10:52 pm Post subject:

sometimes i get a sort of balance thing occasionaly, like if i touch one (foot by accident, not exactly if i do it deliberately), i have to touch the other. if i touch it too hard i have to touch the other to balance it out.......uhm. is that OCD? cause its pretty obsessive, it doesnt happen all the time but once i 'm going i just have to 'balance' things like that.. oh my eyes are the worst, its embarrasing ...if i blink in one eye, i balance it, which doesnt feel right, so i do it again, and just keep blinking. hrm

i rearrange things too, sometimes in parallel, lines, whatever. And i dont leave them alone, i keep doing it and fidgeting. Light switches, washing hands, rinsing clean cups before i use them, washing EVERYTHING before i use it, (if it involves water of course....i dont wash my clothes every time i put them on....)

I have a thing about 'neatness' when i write as well, no matter how rough, i alws double underline all the titles, etc. I'm always the last to finish work in class, by the time everyone's well into an excercise i'm still undelining the date and making everything look as good as possible. (And if the vertical in an I doesnt touch the horizontal bits,....well it has to...)

mienaino · Intermediate User Joined: Jan 18, 2007 Posts: 120

I wash my hands at least every hour.
I wash my feet before putting socks on.
I double left-click on open space then right click and from the dropdown menu and click "Refresh" then move the mouse in two counterclockwise circles before using any computer that runs in Windows.
When talking to myself, I say the same thing over and over again for no reason.
When using a calculator, I hit the clear button three times before entering the first number, and I calculate everything twice, no matter how simple the calculation.
Every time I see a stack of paper, I press down on the edges and corners and run my fingers down, from the top of the paper, over the edge. I do this to make the extremities of the edges concave down.
I wear the exact same clothes every single day and wash them every three days.

monkeycrud · Newbie User Joined: Feb 27, 2007 Posts: 10

I have to pray. Pray, pray, pray. Pray.

I have a slight obsession with hygiene, I've recently began to cough out bad smells for fear of contamination! And I remember doing some of the things people talk about doing such as counting for even numbers, or seeking symmetry in the amount of touches when touching my teeth together, but these have never manifested to be a problem.
What has though is an internal waking nightmare where my relationship with "God"? is so messed up I'm tripping over my mind in thoughts of fear, shame, blasphemy, disgustingness, etc. in an attempt to eradicate the first thought which only snowballs the agony. The prayers become formulaic, and if an intrusive (or "sinful") thought pops its way in when I'm trying to pray I have to start over again. Work meetings used to be horrendous. And when driving it's really not a good idea! This is only a brief description of the problem, but will do for now.

Thought I'd gotten out of it, (have been through clinical psychology and medication) but in the last few weeks it's hit home again after many months (almost) in the clear, and I don't know why.

Waiting on my membership activation, but desperately wanted to ask if anyone else suffers OCD in the form of praying, or if not in any other internal compulsions?

Oh yeah! I should mention my dependancy on alcohol to shut down at night, which only compounds the problem. And sometimes I find myself taking gulps of lager in a repetitive fashion whereby I seek to hit a point of satisfaction from the thirst quenching but if it's not properly symmetrical and quantatively similar I have to keep going til I get it right. But that sort of thing, is much easier to take a grip over. It's the internal crap that kills me.

And reading. That pees me off. I studied literature, but as someone else said, sometimes find myself reading the same sentence over and over to get the utmost out of it, and getting absolutely bloody nowhere.

And I've edited this five or six times already so I guess that says it all!
Sorry, too much about me!

monkeycrud · Newbie User Joined: Feb 27, 2007 Posts: 10

perhaps my account has been activated!?

AvatarAang · Newbie User Joined: Mar 12, 2007 Posts: 5

I get really uncomfortable if something isn't in even numbers.
If I type something up on the computer and if I make a mistake, I can't help but delete the whole sentence and more.
I also wash my hands 20 times a day and I switch the light on and off at least 4 times everytime I turn a light on.
There are more of those but that'll do.
I'm to scared to tell my parents, I try to keep it hidden, but it's getting hard. They watch shows like Monk and they instantly get the impression that OCD is weird.

AvatarAang · Newbie User Joined: Mar 12, 2007 Posts: 5

I also make sure things are off such as power points and if a tap is dripping I turn it as much as I can for it to stop. Every time my hands come into contact with water, I always get a towel to wipe them otherwise i'd feel an extremely uncomfortable feeling.

Emma · Posted: Tue Mar 13, 2007 9:59 am Post subject:

Weighing myself
clicking my fingers when I have to speak to people
I'm frightened of smelling
checking under the bed before I go to sleep

alexb854 · Newbie User Joined: Mar 15, 2007 Posts: 4

i hate touching things with my left hand and not touching them with my right, along with other things...

Si · Posted: Thu Mar 15, 2007 10:30 am Post subject:

Damn.After reading this I've realised I do have OCD's and probably had them for years.

1/ Checking all appliances are off before leaving house 3-4 times.
2/ Always keeping doors locked.
3/ Always rinsing my face after washing hands
4/ Always looking for imperfections
5/ Always looking for spiders (Although that may just be the fact I'm an arachnophobic).

Come to think of it, I could easily write a big list.A lot of your obsessions I can relate to.Funny how they seem so normal to ourselves at the time.
Confused

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midge · Newbie User Joined: Mar 29, 2007 Posts: 3

I ask my husband a million questions. It is a reassurance kind of thing. I have to get the answer just right, but then of course there is another one. It mosty revolves around his grown children, who I feel are more important to him than I am. My therapist said it is fear of loss. I am going to a physichiatris next month to try the med Anafranil. My aunt, who has had ocd for 50 years has been on it for many years and says it has helped.