I spend the afternoon in cars
I sit in traffic jams for hours
Don't push me
I am not ok
The sky is blue most every day
The lemons grow like tumors
They are tiny suns
Infused with sour
Lonely as a cloud
In the Golden State
"The coldest winter that I ever saw
Was the summer that I spent..."
The only substance is the fog
And it hides all that has gone wrong
Can't see a thing
Inside the maze
There is a bridge adored and famed
The Golden spine of engineering
Whose back is heavy
With my weight
Lonely as a cloud
In the Golden State
"The coldest winter that I ever saw
Was the summer that I spent..."
Be still this old heart
Be still this old skin
Drink you last drink
Sin your last sin
Sing your last song
About the beginning
Sing your song loud
So the people can hear
Let's Go
Be still this sad day
Be still this sad year
Hope your last hope
Fear your last fear
You're not the only one
You're not the only one
You're not the only one
You're not the only one
Let's Go
My falling shape will draw a line
Between the blue of sea and sky
I'm not a bird
I'm not a plane
I took a taxi to the Gate
I will not go to school again
Four seconds was
The longest wait
There's something cold and blank behind her smile
She's standing on an overpass
In her miracle mile
"You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today
Today today to run away"
A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
A pill to make you anybody else
But all the drugs in this world
Won't save her from herself
Her mouth was an empty cut
And she was waiting to fall
Just bleeding like a polaroid that
Lost all her dolls
(coma):
"You were from a perfect world
A world that threw me away today
Today to run away
A pill to make you numb
A pill to make you dumb
(chorus repeat)
Joined: Jun 04, 2008 Posts: 267 Location: The heart of the sun
Posted: Tue Sep 30, 2008 5:35 pm Post subject:
NINE INCH NAILS - I Do Not Want This + every song on The Downward Spiral...
I'm losing ground
you know how this world can beat you down
I'm made of clay
I fear I'm the only one who thinks this way
I'm always falling down the same hill
bamboo puncturing this skin
and nothing comes bleeding out of me just like a waterfall I'm drowning in
2 feet below the surface I can still make out your wavy face
and if I could just reach you maybe I could leave this place
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
don't you tell me how I feel
don't you tell me how I feel
don't you tell me how I feel
you don't know just how I feel
I stay inside my bed
I have lived so many lives all in my head
don't tell me that you care
there really isn't anything now, is there?
you would know, wouldn't you?
you extend your hand to those who suffer
to those who know what it really feels like
to those who've had a taste
like that means something
and oh so sick I am
and maybe I don't have a choice
and maybe that is all I have
and maybe this is a cry for help
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
I do not want this
don't you tell me how I feel
don't you tell me how I feel
don't you tell me how I feel
you don't know just how I feel
I want to know everything
I want to be everywhere
I want to fuck everyone in the world
I WANT TO DO SOMETHING THAT MATTERS
Right Where it Belongs -
See the animal in his cage that you built,
Are you sure what side you're on?
Better not look him too closely in the eye,
Are you sure what side of the glass you are on?
See the safety of the life you have built,
Everything where it belongs
Feel the hollowness inside of your heart,
And it's all... right where it belongs
What if everything around you,
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you think you know,
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection,
Is it all you want it to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks,
Would you find yourself... find yourself afraid to see?
What if all the world's inside of your head?
Just creations of your own
Your devils and your gods all the living and the dead
And you're really all alone
You can live in this illusion,
You can choose to believe.
You keep looking but you can't find the woods,
While you're hiding in the trees
What if everything around you,
Isn't quite as it seems?
What if all the world you used to know,
Is an elaborate dream?
And if you look at your reflection,
Is that all you want to be?
What if you could look right through the cracks,
Would you find yourself... find yourself afraid to see?
_________________ I want ecstasy. I am a neurotic — in the sense that I live in my world. I will not adjust myself to the world. I am adjusted to myself.
Fear, and panic in the air
I want to be free
From desolation and despair
And i feel like everything i sow
Is being swept away
Well I refuse to let you go
I can't get it right
Get it Right
Since I met you
Loneliness be over
When will this loneliness be over?
Life will flash before my eyes
So scattered and lost
I want to touch the other side
And no one thinks they are to blame
Why can't we see
That when we bleed we bleed the same
I can't get it right
Get it Right
Since I met you
Loneliness be over
When will this loneliness be over?
Loneliness be over
When will this loneliness be over?
Joined: Jun 04, 2008 Posts: 267 Location: The heart of the sun
Posted: Thu Oct 09, 2008 7:13 pm Post subject:
So this is permanence, love's shattered pride
What once was innocent, turned on it's side
A cloud hangs over me, marks every move
Deep in the memory, of what once was love
Oh how I realised how I wanted time
Put into perspective, tried so hard to find
Just for one moment, thought I'd found my way
Destiny unfolded, I watched it slip away
Excessive flash points, beyond all reach
Solitary demands for all I'd like to keep
Let's take a ride out, see what we can find
A valueless collection of hopes and past desires
I never realised the lengths I'd have to go
All the darkest corners of a sense I didn't know
Just for one moment, I heard somebody call
Looked beyond the day in hand, there's nothing there at all
Now that I've realised how it's all gone wrong
Gotta find some therapy, this treatment takes too long
Deep in the heart of where sympathy held sway
Gotta find my destiny, before it gets too late.
Procession moves on, the shouting is over
Praise to the glory of loved ones now gone
Talking aloud as they sit round there tables
Scattering flowers washed down by the rain
Stood by the gate at the foot of the garden
Watching them pass like clouds in the sky
Try to cry out in the heat of the moment
Possessed by a fury that burns from inside
Cry like a child, though these years make me older
With children my time is so wastefully spent
A burden to keep, though their inner communion
Accept like a curse an unlucky deal
Played by the gate at the foot of the garden
My view stretches out from the fence to the wall
No words could explain, no actions determine
Just watching the trees and the leaves as they fall
_________________ I want ecstasy. I am a neurotic — in the sense that I live in my world. I will not adjust myself to the world. I am adjusted to myself.
"I won't see you tonight (part 1)" by Avenged Sevenfold
Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight
Sorrow, sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and loved
Building up inside of me
A place so dark, so cold, I had to set me free
Don't mourn for me,
You're not the one to place the blame
As bottles call my name I won't see you tonight
Sorrow sank deep inside my blood
All the ones around me
I cared for and most of all I loved
But I can't see myself that way
Please don't forget me or cry while I'm away
Cry alone, I've gone away
No more nights, no more pain
I've gone alone, took all my strength
But I've made the change,
I won't see you tonight
So far away, I'm gone.
Please don't follow me tonight
And while I'm gone everything will be alright
No more breathe inside
Essence left my heart tonight
There are two parts of this song, each one being a seperate song, the second one, I won't see you tonight part 2 is about suicide as seen from a faimly member or friend. part 1 as you can guess is about commiting suicide yourself. both songs give an interesting perspective on the subject from both sides. I urge anyone who likes rock/metal to check out these songs, I think you will like them. The first time I heard part 1 it was instantly one of my favorite songs ever.
There are numerous songs that I could post because I love music and it is such a big part of my life.
Another song that I listend to years ago but still got me through some tough times is
Diluted by Slipknot
I'm cold, I'm ugly
I'm always confused by everything
I can stare into a thousand eyes
But every smile hides a bold-faced lie
It itches, it seethes, it festers and breathes
My heros are dead, they died in my head
Thin out the herd, squeeze out the pain
Something inside me has opened up again
Thoughts of me exemplified
All the little flaws I have denied
Forget today, forget whatever happened
Everyday I see a little more of overall deficiencies
I'm nothing short of being one complete catastrophe
What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?(2x)
I save all the bullets from ignorant minds
Your insults get stuck in my teeth as they grind
Way past good taste, on our way to bad omens
I decrease, while my symptoms increase
God what the fuck is wrong
You act like you knew it all along
Your timing sucks, your silence is a blessing
All I ever wanted out of you was
something you could never be
Now take a real good look at
What you've fucking done to me
What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?(2)
Gimme any reason why I'd need you, boy
Gimme any reason why I'd need you
Gimme any reason why I'd need you
Gimme any reason not to fuck you up
Gimme any reason why I'd need you, bitch
Gimme any reason why I'd need you
Gimme any reason why I'd need you
Gimme any reason not to fuck you up
I see you in me(8x)
I keep my scars from prying eyes
Incapable of ever knowing why
Somebody breathe, I've got to have an answer
Why am I so fascinated by
bigger pictures, better things
But I don't care what you think
You'll never understand me
What the hell - did I - do to deserve - all of this?(3x)
Joined: Dec 07, 2006 Posts: 420 Location: 44/m/miami
Posted: Sat Oct 11, 2008 2:15 am Post subject:
If you get a chance, go see the Blackest of Black tour with Danzig, Dimmu Borgir, etc.
Danzig wrote:
can't speak
can't talk
can't do anything they want
can't hide
or change your mind
gonna live w/ all my soul
inside
can't speak
can't talk
can't stop for the reeling cause
or love
I told 'em all about it
can't talk
cause I'm already lost
can't think
can't cry
keep thinking of a suicide
it's hard
I just can't forget it
gonna fade cause I'm already dead
can't think
can't dream
don't care if I live or die
don't talk
I just can't believe it
gonna fade cause I'm already deadcan't speak
can't lie
don't go anywhere to hide
can't think
can't cry
keep thinking of a suicide
can't speak
can't talk
can't do anything I want
can't hide
or change your mind
gonna live w/ all my soul inside
_________________ Accept your reactions and be present
Choose a valued direction
Take action
Starving Searching this barren wasteland
Trying To grasp being this alone
Pleading for a breath of fresh air
Someone's standing on my chest
Dying I'm asphyxiating myself
I *****
Break myself Slave to my weakness Choke on my words
Oh I'm drowning I feel so alone
Break myself Slave to my weakness Choke on my words
The lights are on and I wish I was home
Break myself Slave to my weakness Choke on my words
Oh I'm drowning I feel so alone
Break myself Slave to my weakness Choke on my words
The lights are on and I wish I was home
My lips Are screaming pretty nothings
My ears Are bleeding for want of words,
fuck words I need actions
Hope has left me fucking shattered
Someone's standing on my chest
alone Would be a pleasant change from here
alone
How do you gauge loneliness x3
Have you ever felt so alone
Alone
It feels like the light will never reach me here
I am choking back my longing for shed tears
So strangulated by my lonesome fears
Please don't worry too much
It only hurts when I breathe
Joined: Jun 20, 2005 Posts: 421 Location: United States of America
Posted: Tue Oct 28, 2008 2:45 am Post subject:
"Great Indoors" by John Mayer. I was listening to this song pretty much all day at work today.
Check your pulse it's proof that you're not listening to
The call your life's been issuing you
The rhythm of a line of idle days
Scared of a world outside you should go explore
Pull all the shades and wander the great indoors
The great indoors
Lamplight makes the shadows play
And posters take the walls away
The T.V. is your window pane
The view won't let you down
So put your faith in a late night show
I bet you didn't even know
Depends on how far out you go
The channel numbers change
Scared of a world outside you should go explore
Pull all the shades and wander the great indoors
Though lately I can't blame you
I have seen the world
And sometimes wish your room had room for two
So go unlock the door
And find what you are here for
Leave the great indoors
Please leave the great indoors
Check your pulse it's proof that you're not listening to
The call your life's been issuing you
The rhythm of a line of idle days
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