Ever feel like choices you made were a factor in life suckin

Horatio · Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 12:33 pm Post subject:

Okay the whole drinking thing… I used to be rather righteous about my drinking stance. Not to the point where I was verbally expressing this to others or trying to tell others they were wrong but quietly I was content that I wasn’t ‘wasting my life’ away on drugs and alcohol.

This was purely on part of my Christian upbringing and the pressure within the Christian circle to confirm to a life devoid of alcohol, drugs and sex. Said pleasures of life were to be replaced with equally stimulating activities like fizzy drink, immature arguments over the relevance of a verse in the book of Proverbs and for the women, embroidery 

I now realize I was wrong. I was being brought up to live in a world that simply does not exist and I do regret the time I wasted before realizing that.

Modern day life doesn’t play out like an Enid Blyton story. If you don’t believe me, ask Noddy.

My situation may be exaggerated a little by geography; I know that the youth scene here in New Zealand receives a lot of press that indicates the ‘binge drinking culture’ is at the extreme end on the global scale. Perhaps in other places alcohol doesn’t take pride of place as the centerpiece on the mantel of youth but here that is very much the case.

I never got drunk until after I turned 21 and only started drinking on a regular basis over the last year or so. During this time I have met approximately 1000% more people than previous to drinking.

If people with no social anxiety still feel the need to use alcohol as a social lubricant then why shouldn’t people with actual social difficulties use it for the same purpose? Especially when it works!

Back to the thread topic… choices made that contributed towards my situation…regrets… well yeah I regret that I lost so many years to Christianity, being indoctrinated with a mindset which has and still does serve as road block on the secular highway.

In saying that I think it’s important to accept the past, accept the part it played in who you are today. Sure I was bullied through high school and circumstances bred me into a social misfit but perhaps if I hadn’t gone through all of that then I would be a lesser person now.

Regrets can only be useful if you can use them to help you understand your situation or let them serve as signposts to part of your life that you can work on before its too late. People who say that they live with a ‘No Regrets’ motto don’t live a life without regretful circumstances, they just choose to accept things and move on.

Dill · Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 9:05 pm Post subject:

Well for me ( and i am very ashamed of this) , alcohol is what gets me through. I've turned into a daily drinker. In certain situations, for example if I had to meet up with a girl, i used to take a couple of swings from my hip flask and with the help of a strong breathe mint, I would carry on with my day. I've decided to stop this as i believe it to be plain disgusting.

I really admire you guys for not falling prey to alcohol or drugs.

abc1234 · Posted: Fri Oct 20, 2006 9:43 pm Post subject:

i made a choice not use drugs, alcohol i know that things would be much easier if i did use them but being straight edge is something that i am proud of.Its not easy especially because of the way im am drugs would make being more out going easier probably.Things would be better if i tried to meet people like myself by going to hardcore shows im really in to punk and hardcore music and really wish i could get myself to go to shows and get in to the scene and meet people but i dont.

alissashreddah · Posted: Mon Nov 06, 2006 4:33 am Post subject:

I feel like my drug use in the past (sober now 6 years) has greatly affected my SAD/GAD/Agoraphobia. I think after doing acid I became worse than I ever was before.

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