help me please. im contemplating suicide

helpme1 · Newbie User Joined: Jan 10, 2007 Posts: 2

i know this sounds pathetic but my boyfriend just left me. he wont tell me why all he said was that we wouldnt last. i love him. he was my life. i cant stand to know that i will never hold him or kiss him again and that someone will eventually take my place. i really want to die but i cant stand to leave my mother behind. she suffers from depression too. ive been on 4 antidepressants. yesterday i was at my psychiatrist and she was going to put me on something else. ive recently taken prozac so i dont know if that has anything to do with it. i dont want to leave but im afraid i have to to spare my mother. i just cant take it. ive been crying since yesterday and i havent eaten. please someone help me deal with this.

Emma · Posted: Wed Jan 10, 2007 8:39 am Post subject:

Please don't consider suicide!!!!
I'm in the exact same spot you are in, I know it hurts to think that you won't ever get to hold him again or kiss him again.....but it does get easier in time...it's Ok to be sad and cry about him, but eventually you have to try and get back up again, you can always message me if you want to talk about it.

helpme1 · Newbie User Joined: Jan 10, 2007 Posts: 2

thanks. its just so hard to take. part of me doesnt want to believe its true. i wish there was a way to get him back but i know hes gone forever.

boston12 · Newbie User Joined: Jan 12, 2007 Posts: 13

gkelly455 · Newbie User Joined: Feb 20, 2007 Posts: 3

I am in a different position, I have been on antidepressendts for about 4 months intially they seem to work for me. But now i am very suicidle all I think about is death. I am Married have been for about 2 1/2 years , I was Married before for about 12 years. My first wife abandon me and our kids. Ran off and got pregnant by another man. I took it very hard, the thought of raising my kids without the mother was very hard for me , and my kids. I mopped for months and months, and divorced sometime sooner. I then meet someone who was everything I wanted in my life she has kids and seemed to be very family oriented so ended moving right in sometimes latter. Life was good for a while, but then we had differneces on how are kids was treated, she favored her kids, and wouldnt admit any wrong doing.
Eventually we decided to get Married, things got worst I became more depressed. I felt I fall for that old bait and switch. She pretended to be something she really wasn't . I am at the point where I am now and feel nothing but the feeling of wanting to die. I think about my youngest son and it breaks my heart I feel like he has no one besides myself, and I don't feel like I am any good for him. But I am all he has, otherwise if I know in my heart he would be taken care of I comtemplate taking my life. I am 6'3 black american male , I have been on both sides of the fence I know what it feels to feel hurt, and love , and broken trust. What has happen to this world? I am told I am every womens dream by my counselor, someone who is reponsible, someone who works hard, some who has goals.

random · Posted: Wed Feb 21, 2007 9:59 pm Post subject:

HelpMe1,
I recall the overwhelming sensation of losing the only man I could ever love. It was like being held underwater. But - I did heal. I never believed I would but I did heal. You can too. Please let your psychiatrist know how you feel. Write down the number of a suicide prevention hotline now in case you need to talk to someone - or why not call now? I did heal - that wound where my heart was absolutely healed and I went on to find someone else to love - sounds impossible but it is true.

random · Posted: Wed Feb 21, 2007 10:12 pm Post subject: Re: I understand pain.

gkelly455 · Newbie User Joined: Feb 20, 2007 Posts: 3