Girl with hikikomori says: Hi everyone!

JaneDoe · Newbie User Joined: Jun 08, 2007 Posts: 7

Hi to everybody!

I'm a twenty year old girl living in Europe and I have a social anxiety disorder, avoiding personality, shyness, I'm morbidly obese and as the cherry on top, I am hikikomori. Hikikomori is a Japanese word and it means a total recluse. I never leave my home. Well almost never. A few times I have been outside in four years but that was never alone, always with my mom and her car. I have dropped out of high school when I was 16. I have done a course in nov. 2006 to start a business, but I was brought, and picked up afterwards and I didn't even finish the course. I have locked myself in my room for about two years and the last two years I've still hidden from the outside world but my mom sees me now. It's so surreal to read how I've robbed myself of the best years of my life. I have never heard of a case like mine in Europe/The US, but there are literally millions like me in Japan, we are the lost generation, we are the hikikomori.

I am shy, awkward with people, a disaster with boys, fat, and insecure as hell. I could go on and on and on but yeah. I am my own prisoner and part of me just thinks it's fine because this way I won't have to deal with people making me feel like an awkward idiot, but there's a part of me that wakes me up in the middle of the night anxious to break free.

I'd really like to know if there's anybody out there that can relate to me.

thanks for reading this.

TAMPA-BAY · Posted: Sun Jun 10, 2007 6:02 pm Post subject:

Dont worry your case is not isolated. The reason we dont see people like our self is that we keep our self hidden.

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