my ocd or just me?

meme · Newbie User Joined: Oct 07, 2007 Posts: 43

People always say to use your intuition, but for me, that is incredibly difficult. How can I possibly make a decision without quesitoning myself as I do with every action? Did I lock up enough? Did I clean that glass thoroughly? Will I ever stop thinking about 'x' over and over?

when making a critical decision, and I feel doubt, I think perhaps it's my OCD, so I should choose the opposing side as it would most likely be my intuition, but I'm starting to believe I don't have it.

Im frustrated; really frustrated. People think I'm indecisive, but they don't understand that it has nothing to do with not knowing what I want. I can't choose what show to wach because it might be the "wrong" one based on my thoughts at the time.

I feel like I've come so far in figuring out myself despite my OCD, but sometimes, I feel so held back from doing what I want. I've heard Psilocybin in mushrooms really helps, but I know if I try that and have a bad trip, I'll obsess about it for years. I'm tired. This is a rant, so no need to respond; I feel bratty complaining Wink