Crazy things youve done because of OCD.

mwjskks · Newbie User Joined: Jan 16, 2008 Posts: 4

Here's one I did a while ago.
Drove 20 minutes back to a county fair that my parents had convinced me to go to the day before, once there I bought a ticket and went back thorough the course that I walked through the day before except in reverse, so that I could undo the negative energy that my ocd convinced me the fair had put upon me.

Didn't buy new clothes until I had only 1 shirt left, then finally decided I HAD to buy some clothes so I bought about 5 shirts and returned them all the next day, because it seemed like it caused some negative energy type thing. But I still needed clothes so I bought some the next day from a different store, then I returned about half of them, and got some different ones, and returned about half of those, but I finally was able to get some clothes.

dottie · Posted: Fri Jan 18, 2008 9:01 am Post subject:

wow that's pretty extreme. i don't have any extreme stories like that. my ocd just tends to be this omnipresent thing that most of the time i don't even notice anymore.

an example of one of my weird ocd traits is that i feel as though i have a cord attached to my back and if i spin in one direction, i have to spin in the other direction so this invisible cord doesn't get tangled. if i walk into a room (in showers, etc) i have to turn in such manners so the cord doesn't get tangled. i'm not even concious about that one most of the time, i just do it on autopilot. this is one among 234789234s.

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meme · Newbie User Joined: Oct 07, 2007 Posts: 43

o my gosh! i have that ocd-negative-energy thing too. it sucks.

mwjskks · Newbie User Joined: Jan 16, 2008 Posts: 4

Haha, I have the cord thing too, except with me I feel like if the cord gets wrapped around something, it will like cause the energy of the thing that I wrapped around to become a part of me.

If there is a real threat that makes carrying out one of my compulsions too risky, I can tell myself that it was the universes way of telling me, that it is better the way it is. For example I kind of like one way streets and stuff, because then I can just say to myself: "there is NO WAY i am going to drive backwards down a street to "undo" something." And I dont do it for most things, only when I feel like im in a different state of mind after doing something, but I usually think about it for most things.

The worst are places that I last remember being at a long time ago, because I fear that by going to that place it will cause me to return to the state of mind I was in at that time.

Thats so weird that the stuff that ocd causes are so similar among different people. That clearly seems to indicate that it is a chemical thing, all of the compulsions, seem to be to make people feel like everything is even, clean, or whatever.

siren_0_0 · Newbie User Joined: Jan 11, 2008 Posts: 72

I've done some pretty crazy things b/c of OCD lol but I don't remember them or don't want to. I'm recovering so I don't know if it's a good idea to remember them atm, maybe when I'm 90% better, (I think I'm about 80% better) I'm little miss optimistic lol. I'll try to remember them and laugh. right now I don't think it'll make me feel good to remember all the pain I been thru and shame I had felt bc of OCD...

paulmm · Newbie User Joined: Jun 29, 2007 Posts: 47

my ocd is centered around not letting 'guilty thoughts' influence my life. and since my ocd is pretty bad, this becomes almost impossible at times. if i am obsessing about something i feel guilty about (usually a sexual obsession), i cant let it affect my life in any way, especially not let it benefit me, because i feel like i dont deserve to benefit from disgusting thoughts, etc.

i do 'crazy' things because of ocd almsot daily. i obsess about how a guilty thought will prevent me from enduring some kind of pain or terrible situation, and then put myself in harms way to avoid the feeling that i dont deserve my well-being. ill go to places i know are dangerous becaues i feel like my 'guilty thoughts' have kept me out of harm's way, and so my compulsion is to put myself into harms way. otherwise i feel very dissociative because i feel like i have avoided a huge disaster unfairly. kind of like that movie "final destination".

Foliddudoute · Newbie User Joined: Feb 08, 2008 Posts: 7

Thank you so much for posting this! I can't believe other people had the 'chord in the back' thing too! I'm so amazed.

From the age of about six, I had this thing where I thought a big red piece of string was coming from my back and I used to have to make sure it wouldn't get tangled by turning back in directions I had turned and following my route.

The most crazy thing I ever did, was stealing a bottle opener from my nan - one she got in a cracker for Christmas. I took it on Christmas day because I had a feeling that if I didn't bad things would happen.

lizard714 · Newbie User Joined: Feb 08, 2008 Posts: 2

my OCD is mostly negative energy too, or i get really anxious when i do stuff out of routine... i have to park in the same spot and if i develop a stigma against something like a song or a route during driving i can never use it or listen to the song again. i have to turn my car on the same every time, shower the same, use my phone the same, everything is routine it fucking sucks!

lizard714 · Newbie User Joined: Feb 08, 2008 Posts: 2

i just saw above the thing about returning to the state of mind, i completely know what you mean i cant go certain places i know i was when i was going through shitty times for fear ill get back into that or the bad stuff will happen again...

dottie · Posted: Fri Feb 08, 2008 7:52 am Post subject:

ok here is another wierd one... really wierd.

when i drive, i notice tall poles (usually street lights or telephone poles) in the corner of my eye. this is really wierd i don't know why i do this, sometimes i don't even notice myself doing this. but when i see these posts in the corner of my eye i flex my butt cheeks (haha i said it was weird) as soon as i am driving by the post. at the same time i imagine myself having ran and jumped over that street post, almost like mario would do in a video game. it's like an invisible version of me is running parallel with the car and jumping over posts. i am crazy.

when i drive and go under a light that has turned yellow, i close my eyes because it is almost like bad luck if my eyes catch the light turning red while i am still passing underneath. i don't believe in it but at the same time i practice this.

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