I just can't take it anymore i want to die. I have no goal in life no future whatsoever. My mom doesn't care about me neither does my father. My mom cares only about her 3 other daughters that she had with another man that are in their 30s. SHe sends them everything and to her grandkids. I was telling her how i had a problem with a teacher who failed me although she wasn't suppose to and she IGNORED ME. I don't have a lot of friends...i dress like crap, i look like crap, i am stupid for being so anxious about small things. I never go out anywhere, i dont like talking on the phone...LETsee...I am a waste of a HUMAN.
Joined: Jul 30, 2007 Posts: 203 Location: N.Ireland UK
Posted: Fri Feb 08, 2008 7:03 pm Post subject:
nobody's life is a waste its just how you choose to live it
your fate may not be decided yet but just give it time, you never know whats round the corner, just keep a little hope & try to find someone who will care for you, im sure they're out there somewhere go have a look lol
I have a bf who is in another country. I just pretty just can't take it anymore. I had enough of life and my fuccking parents and everything else around me. It is my parent's fault and i am just tired of breathing of being depressed, unhappy.....i just want to go to hell and thats it.
Because my life is over. I am a senior and i won't be doing any of the activities thanks to my parents. I missed the senior trip/senior skating night and i wont go to prom or cruise. What's the point of living? WHen i get to be 30 i won't have any memories of my teenage years. In high school no one will remember me because i am a nobody who has no friend. I am not outgoing or anything so what's the point of living if i am somebody who i dont want to be. What's the point of living if i am not looking toward the future(because i don't see none) if everything i do, i do it because my parents want to not because i want to. I want to drop out of school and not go to college but no i have to go because of my parents. I never get anything i want so why should i continue living a life that is all about them and not about me. I want to be skinny like i used to not some fat (bi(tch). I want to smile because i feel it and not fake it. Life is being nothing but a bittch to me, so why should i live when i have no motivate to be alive?
When every step in life i take, i wish i was dead or i wish i could change my life with someone else. When i hear people talk of how good their life are and this and that. I had enough already, is been 16 years and i am ready to end it all. Years of emptiness, years of being locked up in an apartment, years of not being able to express myself, years of being unhappy, years of figthing, years of suffering and pain, years of just basicly crap. I never been happy so why live when life is precious to someone else and not to me. Nobody would give a sh..it if i die so why live? WHy live if life means nothing to me, and the future would not make it better. Also i am already old, i already wasted 16 years of my life that i would never get back. So why live?........
Look at it this way, it's your senior year. You've made it this far. Once you graduate you'll be off to college. You can live on campus and get away from your parents. If you can't afford it, get a loan. Colleges offer loans that you don't have to pay off until after you graduate.
If you want to lose weight, do it. If you need help, or want someone you can talk to, I'm here. I'm going through the same thing. If you're stuck in your room, put on some music and do some sit ups. It's hard to start, and often hard to stick with, but when the pounds start coming off, it'll be worth it.
I don't want to go away to be honest, i will be depressed and alone. I just want to die. I don't want to go to college either....I see myself with no future or anything.
I'm sorry you feel that way. I'd love to help you, and I'm sure there are plenty of others who would as well, but there's little we can do if you don't want it.
Joined: Feb 13, 2008 Posts: 24 Location: Brisbane, Australia
Posted: Wed Feb 13, 2008 5:02 am Post subject:
I know this may be really annoying to hear, but bear in mind that you are still very young. Between the ages of 16-18, I was extremely depressed too. Ended up in hospital twice, "hated" my mum, ran away for 8 months. I lost a lot of my friends. Now 3 years later, I have barely any friends, however I can see now that life is definately worth living. Again, this may come across quite condescending, but at that age it's quite hard to see the bigger picture. I think hormones and immaturity have a lot to do with some of the emotions I felt, and possibly the emotions you're feeling.
Please trust me that things WILL get better. You just need to hang in there and keep trying. I'm not saying life will be perfect when you're a few years older, but you'll definately find things that make it worthwhile.
I apologize if anything I said came across rude; it's definately not how I meant it. I wish someone had guarenteed to me at that age that things get easier, although I doubt I would have believed them.
Take care
Oh no you are not sounding rude. I just feel like my life is over already. I am somebody that i am not because of my parents, is not my inner self. I have to pretend that i am so kind of saint when i am not. I just want to die because my life is never going to change and even if it does i find no point in living because i already waste 16 years, which are suppose to be the best years of your life. In my case it wasn't.
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