Sometimes, when I'm just really sick of feeling like crap, I do pretend, because I read somewhere that if you pretend long enough you might start to believe it and it will be true.
That has never really worked for me though
I am also extremely worried about how my behavior affects those around me, and when I start to notice that I am making other people sad I pretend that I'm fine. Being outwardly depressed also causes people to pay attention to you, sometimes you'll get people who want to "cheer you up", and all that attention is scary! So I just lie and say, yeah, I'm all better now. It's easier to be one person in front of people and your regular sad self behind closed doors. But then you start to feel isolated because nobody knows the "real you", nobody knows or understands your reality. It's just a big vicious cycle. You know what helps me the most? PROZAC.
I guess that's why I do it too, cause I don't really want my family or anybody to worry about me. But sometimes I wish I knew another depressed, social phobic person so I could talk to them or at least know somebody who goes through the same thing as me...not that I'd wish depression/sp on anybody but I just kinda wish I knew somebody else who had depression & social phobia...cause anybody else just either worries about you or they don't understand or care at all.
Almost everyday. It is easier really that to answer questions about what's wrong with me or why i am unhappy. Most people don't care anyway and those who do cannot understand or give any real help.
oh yes, all the time, and it is better sometimes than hearing "what's wrong with you?" i bottled myself up all through high school, and it's all coming back now. it's really hard to keep it all down. _________________ "How can you hide from what never goes away?"
"There's nothing I hate more than nothing, nothing keeps me up at night, I toss and turn over nothing."
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