Time passing by

phoenix1 · Intermediate User Joined: Oct 27, 2006 Posts: 128

My god, I remember the endless summers when I was young and at school. It felt like I was perpetually stuck and would never be old enough to drive and then never be old enough to graduate highschool and be free. The only significant worry was getting a good grade or wondering whether that girl across the room was looking at me. The future was forever and I had all the time in the world to be who I wanted to be or get where I wanted to get.....later on.

One day I was old enough to drive, then the next I graduated high school. And then every year after it got faster and faster. Then it all become a blur of years and lost dreams. It's been years now since I even graduated college.

Its so sad when I think about about how much hope I had. How many things I thought I would do by the time I was my age now. How big my life was suppose to be. I'm still waiting though....too scared to do anything of any real change. And as the years go by, It becomes harder and harder to do anything of significance..It feels like its too late now. It becomes easier to just let the years go by. Watch my dreams fade and my health fail. Its too bad life is not a video game. I would have pushed the reset button a long time ago if I could.

SilentStranger · Posted: Thu Jan 03, 2008 2:58 pm Post subject:

Sheesh xmas and new year brought those feeling back... in a big way.

I suppose partly because, another years has gone by and also because xmas time is the time I meet my cousins, family friends and at times the few friends I have, who are in my age group (in fact I am on the older side of all those groups), yet they have made significant start to life (jobs/businesses, relationships, houses etc) or at least they have opportunities to make a good start.

I suppose thats why I hate this period more and not so much because of my fear of the gatherings them self.

I feel my youth is slowly getting away from me and with no significant progress. Well maybe apart from my job... which I hate anyway and feel like I cannot be comfortable or confident enough to do for the rest of my life.

As for others who have said, take life at my own pace. Well I wish I could do that. I want to be at peace. I want to not to have to worry about time it takes to progress and only think about achieving it. Yet it seems there are things that are difficult as one get older. I donno, relationships seems to be a big one. I know sometimes it seems like I am thinking about norms of a bygone era and a culture, but yet I can't dismiss all that advice as irrelevant.

Maybe I need to escape from those expectations and accept my fate of doing things slowly or not doing things at all. Although at times it seems like hopeless (after all if things have been cruddy for 20 odd years, are things going change anytime soon?) at times I still don't want to give up. I think I still have hope.

Anyway, Happy new year folks.

-SS

blackcap · Intermediate User Joined: Nov 14, 2006 Posts: 133

Yeah I can relate to what everyone's been saying. I'm 35 now, going on 36, and I feel old, like my best years are gone and I've wasted my life.

I dread every milestone now, birthdays, Christmas, New Year, because it's just happening all too quickly.

It also worries me that my parents are getting on and won't be around forever. I can't imagine what I will do once they are gone, it's not like I have my own family to be around.

Anyone know how to slow down (or reverse) time please?

krs2snow · Advanced User Joined: Jan 25, 2008 Posts: 322

I am at an age where people younger than me have kids and I still don't and I feel like big giant butthead. I'm not married. My current "relationship" is in the pooper yet I stay in it. And stand still. That's how I feel. Like I haven't moved for years but now the years are going by faster. It makes it hard for me to interact w/people. I don't want others to know how empty I feel inside. I keep everyone at arms length or further. And if I do have to interact I get anxiety and facial flushing because I feel like I should be in a different place by now. This doesn't make me want to run off and get married or knocked up or anything- I want that to happen but only if it's 'right' first. However- at this rate- I may be dead before that happens. Sad

Anyway, it sucks! The oldie but goodie "Life is short" becomes more apparent with each year passing by faster than the one before it.

"I'm just sitting here watching the wheels go round and round" (I hear ya John, I hear ya...)

Pinker · Posted: Sat Feb 09, 2008 1:51 pm Post subject:

For the past three or four years my life has been a daze. 19 going on 20 in a few months and not in uni, jobless, have few friends to speak of and don't know where the hell it all went wrong.

Ajuna24 · Newbie User Joined: Nov 19, 2007 Posts: 54

I know I can relate to that. Um, right now I'm 20 years old. I can't say anything has really changed since i was about 15. I'm not going anywhere, I'm just getting older. What am I even doing here..

Can't find any reason to do anything. Even to go out of the house.
Everything is so empty, you know?

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To err is human; to forgive is divine..

Aramid · Posted: Sun Jun 08, 2008 5:19 am Post subject:

I have a lot of plans for my self and the one i love. I feel like time is very slow. I wish that I time is very fast and with it accomplishing my job faster. I realized that time is so slow for people who manages to observe time carefully while time is fast for those who enjoy things but forgetting them quickly.

I am a young adult and with the time I have I need to be smart, physically and emotionally fit. I want to achieve my dreams in the next 5 years of my life. I hope by the age of 25, I can buy a good house, car, appliances i like. I want to be with the one I love at that age because life is short.

Enjoy what I have for the present and think positive as much as possible for the future. Very Happy

Pinker · Posted: Mon Jun 09, 2008 9:23 pm Post subject:

I have ideas but I am very indecisive and don't act on things. It's terrible. That's what's holding me back. Hyperhidrosis sucks as well.. It saps my confidence.

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Ring them bells, for the time that flies,
For the child that cries
When innocence dies.

toothpastekisses · Posted: Mon Jun 09, 2008 11:07 pm Post subject: