That sounds really rough.. you're right I think your mother behaving that way can only have a negative effect on any child growing up. My dad used to have fits of rage when I was younger (still does sometimes lol), but that sounds like the next level.
How old are you if you dont mind me asking? I'm 20 (though i dont feel like it). I've told my friend this so many times (he also goes through anxiety/depression) that I feel like a boy more than a man. My parents havent said to me what your mother has to you but I feel like this inside so much. It makes me feel inferior and pathetic. What your mother does is horrible because it just cements that idea.
to recluse:
Mother beating her children like that... that's actually disturbing. I don't think its healthy to just take abuse like that. And it sounds like she is unstable, and actually needs your help more than the other way around....
in any case, it might be better to move out. I can't imagine trying to deal with depression in that kind of environment.
Just think about this.
I have no friends, girlfriends, job, or any useful abilities.
I am confined to a cramped apartment 99% of the time, I'm a living joke to my family and strangers.
My nickname is The Human f**k up.
Also, I am a freakish cripple.
My physical deformity is only a metaphor for my emotional deformity.
If I can take life, I think you can. So please, try.
The strongest person emotionally/mentally i've ever met is physically disabled Japanese man (japanese society is horribly intolerant of anything different). Its obvious he's happy, and i keep wondering how he manages to keep it that way.
He said he used to be ashamed of his physical shortcomings. But one day he saw another person, with the same disability, who was obviously ashamed of himself too. And seeing a 'mirror image' of himself, he decided he didn't want to be depressed anymore, he didnt want to hate himself anymore, and to fight to be happy. He's got a great family a great job, and a great heart.
You coming out to help people in the forums kinda reminds me of the way he tries to help me.
Joined: Jan 27, 2006 Posts: 143 Location: Sydney, Australia
Posted: Thu May 01, 2008 7:59 am Post subject:
Bro i totally relate to everything about your mum and feel hell hell sorry for you. My mum (born in almost poverty, tough parents who survived a concentration camp) also was pretty abusive in similiar ways too . . . yet would be all loving at the same time and almost babied me alot in life. It's screwed. You sound like a decent bloke though, and i would love to talk about this in particularly with you. If you like please pm me your email. Hey good luck otherwise.
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