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Janx · Newbie User Joined: Apr 25, 2008 Posts: 16

Hello, I've just joined today after reading some of your posts.

I can totally relate to what people are saying about feeling lonely and isolated from the world because of SA. I can see now that my depression is really a symptom of the SA.

On paper, I guess I'm a pretty sad case. I'm a 33yr old woman, single, unemployed and still live at home with my parents. I have zero social life and can count the number of my friends on one hand. I'm so lonely.

God, this is really hard for me. I sound like such a sad loser, I hate talking about myself and avoid it whenever I can. But this can't go on. I've become so reclusive now that I almost feel like it's normal behaviour.

Can anyone relate?

princess_haru · Posted: Fri Apr 25, 2008 4:47 pm Post subject:

Hi Janx, welcome to our little corner of the t'internet Smile

I'm a newbie too but I've been made to feel really welcome here, so I hope you'll feel the same. I'm sure a lot of people will be able to relate to how you're feeling - I know I can.

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When you're strange
Faces come out of the rain
When you're strange
No one remembers your name

Janx · Newbie User Joined: Apr 25, 2008 Posts: 16

Thanks Princess_haru, its good to know that I'm not alone, although I wouldn't wish this on anybody. I have good days and bad days but sometimes I just think I should just accept who I am and reconcile myself to the fact that I am never going to quite fit in, like others can.

IceLad · Posted: Sat Apr 26, 2008 10:13 pm Post subject: Re: New Member

Hi Janx, and welcome to SPW! Very Happy

princess_haru · Posted: Sun Apr 27, 2008 1:32 pm Post subject:

Janx · Newbie User Joined: Apr 25, 2008 Posts: 16

Thanks to you both for your replies. Princess, you sound like such a thoughtful person, and IceLad, I know what you mean about keeping to one room. My bedroom is like my little safehouse where I can feel safe and secure from the outside world, but at the same time its also like a little prison, and I'm trapped In it.

Pinker · Posted: Tue May 06, 2008 6:52 pm Post subject:

My room is like my safe haven too. Though I am so sick of being in it day after day.

87271 · Posted: Tue May 06, 2008 7:05 pm Post subject:

Hello. I'm new too! I'm glad I found this forum. It's a good place to "meet" new people. Right now, I'm in college. It's pretty hard and I don't have many friends, but I believe things will get better. I spend most of my day in the house, so I can definitely relate. Ever since high school, I haven't had many friends. It's good to hear from people that have similar issues as us. so thanks for posting that! Hope things improve!

Janx · Newbie User Joined: Apr 25, 2008 Posts: 16

Going out gives me stress.
On the few occasions I have been invited out I automatically say 'no', coz the thought of socialising, particularly in groups, fills me with dread. I'm usually ok when I get there, but I just can't seem to get there!
I've made so many excuses to people In the past, that they just stopped asking me, and when I did say I would go, and then bottled it, people would get upset with me. But it wasn't that I didn't want to go - it was just that I couldn't.

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"Pain is just weakness leaving the body"

"Action is the enemy of thought"

Pinker · Posted: Tue May 06, 2008 8:27 pm Post subject:

I had lots of friends in high school, then things went downhill in college and further downhill since then. Then I suspended my uni course. Life has got harder and harder over the years not only having anxiety but having hyperhidrosis in particular of the hands. For me getting a simple part time job or heaven forbid having a girlfriend seem a world away. Socialising.. you must be kidding me.