am i the only 1??

scaryfairy · Posted: Thu Apr 28, 2005 8:06 pm Post subject: am i the only 1??

iv been suffering from anxiety and bad panic attacks now for ages, but recently, and i dnt know why, but I have been getting these strange feelings. I dont know if its to do with a depression or just another side to my bad anxiety, but I find myself always thinking about life and how strange it is. I know it sounds weird.
I wake up in the morning and its the first thing I think about and the last thing I think about before I go sleep. Its taking over everything I do.
I generally just think about life, why we are here, dying etc. grrr i cant take all the crazy thoughts any more!! I hate all the confusion and its making me mad. My friend suffered from depression and even attempted suicide, ive told her what I feel and she said she felt the same from time to time. Its freaking me out to think I had the same thoughts as her and she did that.
I just need someone to honestly assure me that im not the only one who feels like this, it affects everything I do. Sad

if anyone can tel me why I have these thoughts or what they are, or if they have them to, id feel a WHOLE lot better
thankyou
ScArYfAiRy XxX

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Scottish_Player · Posted: Thu Apr 28, 2005 9:27 pm Post subject:

Hi Stacey,i constantly think what is the point in it all,like yourself iam thinking about it everytime i do somthing,when i get up in the mornings its like the film "Ground Hog Day" where everything is so much the same as the day before and nothing is changingi also think why am i here and if i was to leave the world would anyone realy notice it,i dont realy think so maybe no more than 4 people would be truly afected if i was dead and its these 4 people that iam staying alive for.During the days and nights i think of things that i would put in a suicide note,ive never had the nerve to actualt write one as i think i would be taking another step to far with doing that.

Like ive said in a previous post when the people that iam staying alive for are dead then i will be gone aswell.Iam not the type of person that walks around with a long face all the time,i try to enjoy my life as much as i can but having restrictions on myself makes it hard and i am just getting on with things the best i can until my day comes.I have nothing to live for but have too much to dies for if that makes sense.

Ive even got my suicide planned and its a painless in my sleep kinda way but i wont give too much detail as i dont wont to put ideas in peoples heads.Sorry to sound morbid here but its just my true feelings Rolling Eyes

Just to let ya know your not alone in these thoughts and feelings.

maggie · Posted: Thu Apr 28, 2005 11:29 pm Post subject:

I freak myself out too, thinking too hard about that stuff Shocked

. Like, it is all kind of bizarre if you think about it!...sometimes I wonder why I'm really here, and how really permanent being dead is Shocked

... and like we have this one chance here on earth to live and get out of life and give to others whatever we can...then I obsess on how I'm gonna die, and that really freaks me Confused

scaryfairy · Posted: Sat Apr 30, 2005 6:24 pm Post subject: at least im not the only 1

thanks u 2 for replyin!!
I feel better for knowing that im not the only one. Im always trying to adjust my mind to something else which drives me crazy Mad

I always just wish der was some escape from these feelings! i looked it up and its called something like deporsonalization Confused

apparently its not common and that your just REALLY intouch with your emotions and alert. I did find that looking for some answers to what im dealing with helped me a bit, i havent really thought about my "strange feelings" for the day so far Wink

is deporsonalization like a proper mental illness or just something else, lol its hard to explain.
any1 know??
please replying
ScArYfAiRy
XxX

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[[ I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see,
A different side of me ..]]

Scottish_Player · Posted: Sat Apr 30, 2005 9:50 pm Post subject:

i was reading about depersonalization and it says that its most common when a traumatic event happens like if you where hanging off the edge of a cliff or in an car crash its the moment where you feel as if it isant realy happening to you and its unreal,hope this helps ya Smile

redwine · Posted: Sun May 01, 2005 10:13 am Post subject: Re: am i the only 1??

ColdFury · Posted: Sun May 08, 2005 4:32 am Post subject: Re: am i the only 1??

tupac · Posted: Fri May 27, 2005 8:03 pm Post subject:

i used to get like that all the time, still do but not as much. i always wonder whats the deal with life? what are we here for? where do we go when we die? and then i say to myself why am i thinking like this.i sort of trip myself out that way.i think about death constantly not that i wanna ***** its just that life is hell.

Tim001 · Posted: Sat May 28, 2005 11:33 am Post subject:

Human beings are the only species on earth that are aware of their own mortality. Everything else just lives and eventually dies, not knowing until it happens. Our intelligence is our undoing in more ways than one. I also have those same thoughts and I'm sure it's more common than you think.

flatterby · Posted: Thu Jun 02, 2005 10:28 am Post subject: