Joined: Dec 11, 2006 Posts: 378 Location: Birmingham, England
Posted: Mon Jan 15, 2007 12:36 pm Post subject:
shy_girl wrote:
ok well, you did ask lol so beware for a long pathetic annoying post..
i have a horrible personality.
i hate myself for it but im a horrible person, i put my feelings and happiness before anyone elses, im selfish, im unkind, even tho i know how it feels and if someone was unkind to me id fall to pieces. im not a nice person and i HATE myself for it. im stupid and horrible without even realising it and i try so hard to be nice
im annoying, i annoy anyone i talk to with my droning voice and my stupid boring conversation, im boring as hell, im not funny at all, i get jealous so easily, im not good with words or getting my point across, i see so many wise people on this site who are so brilliant at playing with words and when i try to make a long post with my thoughts and views it ends up sounding stupid and childish i dont have any good qualities, everyone thinks im a joke, i have no friends (i can understand why),im ugly and i hate my stupid life. i oh and im so fucking lonely.
GOD i needed that sorry i know extremely whiney post.
I know those feelings so well, it's how I feel a lot of the time too. Though I'm now trying to make sure I put others first, which has helped me to feel a lot better.
I'm sure really you're not as bad as you think you are. *Hugs*
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ok well, you did ask lol so beware for a long pathetic annoying post..
i have a horrible personality.
i hate myself for it but im a horrible person, i put my feelings and happiness before anyone elses, im selfish, im unkind, even tho i know how it feels and if someone was unkind to me id fall to pieces. im not a nice person and i HATE myself for it. im stupid and horrible without even realising it and i try so hard to be nice
im annoying, i annoy anyone i talk to with my droning voice and my stupid boring conversation, im boring as hell, im not funny at all, i get jealous so easily, im not good with words or getting my point across, i see so many wise people on this site who are so brilliant at playing with words and when i try to make a long post with my thoughts and views it ends up sounding stupid and childish i dont have any good qualities, everyone thinks im a joke, i have no friends (i can understand why),im ugly and i hate my stupid life. i oh and im so fucking lonely.
GOD i needed that sorry i know extremely whiney post.
I know those feelings so well, it's how I feel a lot of the time too. Though I'm now trying to make sure I put others first, which has helped me to feel a lot better.
I'm sure really you're not as bad as you think you are. *Hugs*
that really made me feel better starry, thanks
i read your post "Just Realised Something..." and it made alot of sense. i spend alot of time moaning and feeling sorry for myself when really so many people have far worse problems. i spend far too much time moaning about what a crap person i am rather than doing something about it. why make your day worse by thinking over and over about your problems when you could be making someone elses day better? and its things like that that make a person great, it makes them worth talking to and worth and having in your life, all the things i recently found im not worth at all. you have to make yourself worth it! plus, im sure if you make time to make other people feel better, they'll do the same in return, then your day wont seem as bad.god when you think about it its so simple but i've never thought about it like that before. that could be first step to new personality. sorry im probably freaking people out by seeming so enthusiastic but i've just realised it as i was typing. genuine thanks Starry
I wish someone i knew would do the same she has avpd.
Joined: Feb 22, 2007 Posts: 6 Location: Stockholm, Sweden
Posted: Sat Feb 24, 2007 10:25 am Post subject:
Lately I've realized that I do complain pretty much. Maybe not so much to other people, but at least in my own mind I do. I complain both about myself and about other people, which makes me feel bad in a way. I've started thinking that maybe other people annoy me either because I'm envious that their life seems better than mine, or that I just see things in them that I don't like in myself. In any case, I can't say that any of my complaining makes me feel better or that it's really good for me. And my complaints are mostly limited to people. Other things I don't like I just seem to accept. Like I have no friends and think my life is really pathetic, but for some reason I don't complain about it a lot. Unless just thinking that your life sucks count as a complaint. For me it's more like just a statement of fact.
OMG this thread is great. is it bad if I say that it cheered me up reading some of your complaints??
it`s probably because they`re pretty much exactly what I thought i was going to write - I feel like I`m in comfortable company. *hugs*
2. my stoopid parents went to a BBQ without telling me that my brother was going too. I feel like a fucking family embarrassment cos they thought i wasn`t good enough to go. if they had asked me i wouldhave said no, but the point is that they didn`T ask!!
3. i`m getting bitten by lttle annoying mozzies. I always get bitten and look like i have blimin measles or something a couple of days into summer.
4. i have no car, i have no friends who i can just go chill out with and get out of this freaking house, but im too scared to go anywhere.
5. i`ve gained about 8 kgs in a year since getting this damn depression and i want to lose it. I can`t fit half my clothes, which means im always wearing the same thing - not that it matters cos im at home - i look frumpy because I`m fat. plus it`s so annoying feeling so stupid becuase my memory has gotten so bad.
-i should be working, with a well paid job, lots of good friends, enjoying life and making the world a happier place, and have a boyfriend or at least be married - but i don`t have any of that. i`m unemployed, on the sickness benefit, at home, 27, no friends, no boyfriend, no house, no husband, no money. my only qualificationis as a teacher, which i hate - i want to find my purpose in life so i can put all my energy into it. but i don`t know what the hell that is, and when i think i have some kind of an idea i get too frickin scared of even think too much more about it. what the hell is wrong with me~?!?!
my turn again...i can`t sleeep adn it`s 3:50am and my eyes are aching....
oh i know, i`ll go downstairs and watch Howl`s Moving Castle, for some reason it`s the one of the two movies since i`Ve had depression that I can watch where i can eventually fall asleep. teh other one is Spirited away. i guess because they`re both not violent or too sad, and kind of touches the inspired part of you that wants to be a good person, plus it`s interesting enough to stay engaged at what level you want, but you don`t have to think about it if you don`t want to. plus the soundtrack to Howl is especially good.
...hmmm wrong thread.
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i dont have any good qualities, everyone thinks im a joke, i have no friends (i can understand why),im ugly and i hate my stupid life. i oh and im so fucking lonely.
sorry i know extremely whiney post.
