Presentation in college

Just face it. I'm not a great presenter. I worked and practised hard, but at the end I end up with low marks in presentation. I already tried my best, especially in controlling my nerves. I think I presented quite well. I have good use of language and intonation, the only thing is my tutor thinks that I am too stiff when I present and was like a robot. She said I was too nervous till I stood like a robot and presented without any hand gestures or whatever.Okay. I admit I was nervous. I don't know where to put my hand during presentation so I just put them behind. She gave me this comment in front of my classmates and everyone else was laughing. It's embarrassing, isn't it? Maybe she is just trying to help me to improve my presentation but its not gonna work. Having severe fear of presentation is driving me crazy. Not everyone is born to be a great presenter, and I just hate the way when I worked really hard for presentation and there's nothing in return.

Is this one of those public speaking classes? I had an instructor say something similar to me about my hands. She said I looked like a waiter, holding a stack of dishes. Seeing as she did this in front of everyone, it turned me off to ever taking a course like that again. i thought it would help but I dont feel it really did.

I get slightly drunk before giving speeches. Not that I would recommend that.
When I don't drink and make a speech, I literally feel my anxiety flooding my entire body when I get up in front of everyone. When I do, I feel an anxiety attack start to come on, but get blocked by the alcohol (if that's even possible, maybe a placebo effect) but I can breathe and think much clearer under the influence of alcohol compared to anxiety.

God.....I relate. For me, I have found talking about it in front of a few friends I know well before hand, -to learn how the audience may gage what you are conveying. I have read that having a pen to fiddle with can help some people.