weirdinpublic
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So here is the deal. I have really bad social anxiety, panic attacks, and depression and before I could ever be correctly medicated I started self medicating. Long story short I finally found benzos and they work great for me, but because of my drug history no docs want to give them to me. They want me to take an anti depressant and buspirone, or vistaril. Well when i take those i get really quirky, or sleepy sometimes from the vistaril and then eventually just start using again. So now I'm on methadone because I just moved across the country and when I went to try and get a new doctor for Klonopin 2 out of 2 said Antidepressants and Vistaril, and being bummed out just said **** it and started using heroin(my guilty pleasure) being a "Im trying to be a recovering addict" I didnt want to continue so I got on methadone quickly and off the heroin, but now I'm just on methadone....and still have 50% of the anxiety,depression problems. Which are live with able. Problem is my family despises methadone, and treat me like I might as well just be using heroin. I wish when your honest about your past with a doctor and have no history of abusing benzos( i take about 1 kpin daily at some point, and for some one with ptsd, and the above mentioned problems that doesnt seem unreasonable) they could treat you like a human and not just a drug addict trying to get drugs.....But i guess thats what I am.. So whats the imput?? Methadone and the anti depressants are just going to be the rest of my life?
Anyone else out there have similar problems?
Anyone else out there have similar problems?