quit my job today...

frogger · 10-03-2009, 10:36 PM

Today I just walked out because I couldn't stand my thoughts anymore about harming children. Now I am once again an unemployed loser, but at least I get a $700 social security check. I feel like I have no control over my thoughts and I just want to stay in my room until I die.

Noca · 10-03-2009, 10:47 PM

(((hugs)))

I've quit 15 jobs so far in my life so I know how it feels.

FountainandFairfax · 10-03-2009, 10:51 PM

You did the right thing.

If you're having thoughts like that, I think it's responsible on your part to resign.

FOR REAL · 10-03-2009, 10:55 PM

there was a time when i had a job and the boss told me my instructions for the next day! but scotland were playing against holland on that day!
so i just told her straight "im not coming into work the morn! your having a fkn laugh"
but we got beat and i got sacked!
fk it! who cares!

frogger · 10-03-2009, 11:10 PM

I have quit every job I have ever had (about 7), except for 1 (at a baseball stadium, but the baseball season ended in under 6 months). Maybe I am a ****ing pedophile; I really feel like giving up on life.

FOR REAL · 10-03-2009, 11:24 PM

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Originally Posted by frogger

I have quit every job I have ever had (about 7), except for 1 (at a baseball stadium, but the baseball season ended in under 6 months). Maybe I am a ****ing pedophile; I really feel like giving up on life.

i have no idea why quitting a job (or getting the sack in my case) would make you think your a paedofile!!!!!!!!!!!
please explain

frogger · 10-03-2009, 11:30 PM

I quit the job because of my thoughts. I get hideous thoughts of harming or sexually abusing children.

IDK94657 · 10-04-2009, 12:41 AM

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Originally Posted by frogger

I quit the job because of my thoughts. I get hideous thoughts of harming or sexually abusing children.

Remember, it's part of the OCD. As Barry1979 said, OCD can warp your mind. It will make you think without a doubt that you want to harm others in one form or another. However, deep down you feel that you'd rather die than hurt one of those children, right?

frogger · 10-04-2009, 12:55 AM

yes. Funny thing is I do the compulsive checking by looking at magazines and pictures on the internet (not pornography) to see if I think I am still attracted to them, and I find the pictures to not be sexually appealing at all. When I am under stress, however, like at work today everything seems to be going by at a faster pace, and I don't have time for the checking. Somehow, I am affraid if I am not careful enough, in a split second I could harm a child walking by me.

IDK94657 · 10-04-2009, 01:01 AM

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Originally Posted by frogger

yes. Funny thing is I do the compulsive checking by looking at magazines and pictures on the internet (not pornography) to see if I think I am still attracted to them, and I find the pictures to not be sexually appealing at all. When I am under stress, however, like at work today everything seems to be going by at a faster pace, and I don't have time for the checking. Somehow, I am affraid if I am not careful enough, in a split second I could harm a child walking by me.

As long as it calms your OCD down, it's better than nothing.

One way of proving to yourself that it's the OCD is by looking at your day. You said it was stressful, so your OCD was worse and all those feelings were worse, right? I don't blame you for quitting if your that worried, but try a therapist or medicine first.

When your at work you can also try to focus on other things, or even come up with little stories all day. Do you like cars? Maybe think about what you'd like to do with yours, or one you'd like to own. Sometimes it passes time for me or helps stave off OCD, so maybe you could try that.