SA and not being able to hold a job

Jannah

Banned
I've had close to 30 jobs over the past 4 years and I am only 21. It is the most embarrassing thing ever. The longest job I've ever held was close to one year and that was my FIRST job!

I blame it on my depression and extreme social anxiety that made it unbearable for me to stay working. There have been jobs that I've only lasted a day, ONE DAY!. I left those jobs after one day if my I was too emotionally unstable, anxious, and panicky. There have been jobs where I lasted 1 week then other jobs that I lasted 3 months and one that lasted 5 months. My last job I stayed with for about a month and a half. The work itself was fine but it was working with those people that was so horrible.

When I go out around town and I see people in the stores or shops that have been working there for years I envy them and begin to feel like the biggest loser in the world. On the other hand I might feel like a loser had I been working in the same place for the last 4 years at this age. I've had all type of jobs, I've done it all lol, nothing illegal or immoral though. Actually now that I think of it I'm surprised that I've been hired by close to 30 employers over a relatively short period. Maybe it was a streak of luck, or I just expertized the "art" of the interview lol

I think the reason I lasted so long in my first job was because at the time my SA and depression wasn't as bad as it is now, even though I still do remember being depressed. I feel like such an old man for having tried so many things. Thank god I'm finally going back to school next month, maybe I'll get a little part time on the side. Anybody else have a similar experience with employment?
 
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I’m pretty much the same when it comes to having jobs that last from one day to a few weeks. I was lucky though to have a job for three years; it was the best time of my life. I was left alone to do my job, I lived not far away, and the hours were great. When they decided to close the place down, I was dismayed. I looked to everyone in my family who has had jobs lasting from 30 years to 10. I feel like I have bad luck, why can’t I have a job that lasts that long? Why do I have to suffer while everyone takes everything for granted? I’m still suffering from the depression of losing my job. I know the chances of me getting one are slim, but I want my old life back, I enjoyed a fulltime job.
 

cobalt_bluester

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hi. i think you must give yourself enormous credit for suceeding to get all of those jobs in the first place. You must be doing something right at the interviews.
 
Pretty much the same for me. Except in my case, it was insomnia more than anything else. Some of the other things I can just force myself to go in spite of fear or depression. But with lack of sleep, I can't stay coherent for long and it physically damages the body.

So I have empathy for your plight.
 

Richey

Well-known member
To have or take on thirty jobs would take an insane amount of confidence, so well done anyway. you seem like someone who will have no trouble at least obtaining employment, i barely get any call backs for interviews and so forth. you're doing well, if you enjoy a particular job just stick at it with all your will.
 
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