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I thought I was like the only person with this stupid ridiculous excuse of a phobia, but Ive realised that other people do have it which is comforting to know.
The anxiety all started at school during assemblies, but that was more a fear of being jammed in with so many people around me then it moved on to feeling that i was losing control during exams, classroom lessons. Now I live in London I get anxiety sometimes when using the tube because I know I'm jammed in and wont be able to go to the toilet. Sometimes I need to get off the tube because it becomes too much and I could never do a long coach or car journey because of it, I would be way too traumatised and worried about feeling the fear of needing to go to the toilet. On a bad day I also end up giving myself diarrhoea because i make myself so nervous about the anticipation of being stuck on the tube which only makes me panic even more, that im gonna need the toilet, but cutting out coffee and bread in the mornings has helped me a bit + rescue remedy is kinda good for calming yourself down during a panicky situation. Ive often tried to think deeply about what would be so bad if it did ever happen on a tube or public place then I realise its a fear of humiliating myself in front of other people and have them laugh at me- i dont know where this comes from, its an annoying bloody phobia and hard to talk about because to other people it must sound so stupid and pointless.
The anxiety all started at school during assemblies, but that was more a fear of being jammed in with so many people around me then it moved on to feeling that i was losing control during exams, classroom lessons. Now I live in London I get anxiety sometimes when using the tube because I know I'm jammed in and wont be able to go to the toilet. Sometimes I need to get off the tube because it becomes too much and I could never do a long coach or car journey because of it, I would be way too traumatised and worried about feeling the fear of needing to go to the toilet. On a bad day I also end up giving myself diarrhoea because i make myself so nervous about the anticipation of being stuck on the tube which only makes me panic even more, that im gonna need the toilet, but cutting out coffee and bread in the mornings has helped me a bit + rescue remedy is kinda good for calming yourself down during a panicky situation. Ive often tried to think deeply about what would be so bad if it did ever happen on a tube or public place then I realise its a fear of humiliating myself in front of other people and have them laugh at me- i dont know where this comes from, its an annoying bloody phobia and hard to talk about because to other people it must sound so stupid and pointless.