Somebody knows how to cure OCD peripheral vision?

Mike555

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Once i became aware of it, i can't stop looking for the corners of my eyes on other people, now it makes other people un-comfortable, and i can not handle it, on the bus, train, and when i look down with my head like, people ask "everything is good man?" and think something happened to me..

this problem ruins my life and i can not continue like this.

Could it be because of my eye? i see blurry with 1 eye, with the other eye i see good and maybe i just need eye lens for 1 eye? i have to see eye doctor soon and will check it out and see if it worked. but i don't think it's because of this.. i'm not even sure and it freaks me OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BTW somebody tried helping, he commented

"Instead of repressing my actions/thoughts/whatever from my obsession, let it happen. (stare whoever
i have the desire to, then, attempt to remiss the situation of my belief that the person is thinking about
me in someways, or at the very least lessen the thought of it) And in time (hopefully) I will realize that
it's not harming me or anyone in anyway."

And this did not help! i tried it! i felt anxiety, it made other people un-comfortable as well.

I think it has to do something with body language, not the peripheral vision, but when you show negative signs with your body language, it makes him nervous and he's nervous because he probably thinks he caused you to be nervous or something..... oh my god!!!!!!!! and you can not control your body language.. it's super freaking hard and it's impossible!!!!!

I got so many problems in my life, social anxiety, army, OCD starring, super social awkwardness, i make other people nervous, i got shitty job (not even combat) in the army, ADHD and i ask awkward questions which make other people un-comfortable. i swear to god, i want to suicide i really do, i wana move to the next life but i'm super concenred of what is going to be in the next life, or hell or heaven or nothing, or a new body or even in a new animal's body or even a new planet... and i want to live life while i'm alive so it holds me from suiciding but i don't give a shit about dying to be honest, just if i wish if i knew what will happen in the next life, then would smile.. and i before i would do that, i would tell to the loved ones that they shouldn't care about me at all and i would be angry at them.
 
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SoScared

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^I know how to. I've done it.

I've started to explain how to overcome this affliction in the 'if anyone interested in meditation' thread.

However, I've vastly refined my technique. I will post specific up to date guidance in a couple of weeks.

Please read the above thread in preparation.

It is not your body language; it is you mind.
 

Mike555

Active member
^I know how to. I've done it.

I've started to explain how to overcome this affliction in the 'if anyone interested in meditation' thread.

However, I've vastly refined my technique. I will post specific up to date guidance in a couple of weeks.

Please read the above thread in preparation.

It is not your body language; it is you mind.

Hello, i would gladly do anything, i will start meditation or what ever, send me links when there is something.
 

Whoopdeedoo

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Im trying luvox rx... Its making me very tired.. Maybe be a little time or lower dose
But its relieved body tension unbelievably...im sleeping, eating better and the constant chitter chatter and obsessive thoughts and compulsive actions have ceased. Try it
Good luck
Hang in there
Pray for it to pass and try to focus your attention more productively
 

Mike555

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Today on the bus, we stood and the guy spoke english, he thought i don't understand english, he spoke to his friend, i heard him saying "it's not awkward, it's weird" then after sometime, he said "look, he doesn't stop starring" then his friend turned to me by the side, and wanted to see if i stare or not.. omg it ruins my life.. i then kept my head down all the 1 hour with the bus.. my neck started hurting because i was in 1 position and didn't move, i tried to freeze so people won't notice me.. well i think it's not such a good idea.. i don't know what to do with my body or my eyes so i just freeze and try to be un-noticable.
 

SoScared

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First Comments: (I will explain then add some of my experience.

This is coming from you. You are making attachments to people. Even though you tell yourself not to you still are. The act of lowering you head is accepting that you are making attachments. You do the same thing time and time again. Attachments are not good.

My experience:
I checked out if I was making attachments.
I was sat with 3 women in a regular conversation setting. I could sense my senses and my awareness being passed over to them. I was making a strong mental and possibly physical attachment to all of them for no apparent reason. I was quite possibly making them uncomfortable. The attachment I was making was almost tangible.

I relaxed the attachment. Wow, it became evident to me how strong the attachment that I had been making only a few seconds ago was. This non-attachment was clearly the best way to be.

I practice not making attachments daily. If I find that I am making an attachment I can not release it almost immediately.

This doc is not perfect that I was sufficient for my requirements.
Let me know if it is a useful starter doc.

Personality disorders as disorganisation of attachment and affect regulation
 

Mike555

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First Comments: (I will explain then add some of my experience.

This is coming from you. You are making attachments to people. Even though you tell yourself not to you still are. The act of lowering you head is accepting that you are making attachments. You do the same thing time and time again. Attachments are not good.

My experience:
I checked out if I was making attachments.
I was sat with 3 women in a regular conversation setting. I could sense my senses and my awareness being passed over to them. I was making a strong mental and possibly physical attachment to all of them for no apparent reason. I was quite possibly making them uncomfortable. The attachment I was making was almost tangible.

I relaxed the attachment. Wow, it became evident to me how strong the attachment that I had been making only a few seconds ago was. This non-attachment was clearly the best way to be.

I practice not making attachments daily. If I find that I am making an attachment I can not release it almost immediately.

This doc is not perfect that I was sufficient for my requirements.
Let me know if it is a useful starter doc.

Personality disorders as disorganisation of attachment and affect regulation
Hey, I don't understand this, it's also too much to read and I read and read and 80% I don't understand, is there some of technique or something? what is it about this site? what will it teach me also?
 

SoScared

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OK, the doc is just saying that it is you that is making the connection. This is fundamentally why you have your issue.

Try this. Its training to helps relax your gaze 1m to 1.5m on the floor in front of you. The idea is that concentrate as guided by the mediation and not on anything in your peripheral vision. Think about how this type of practice might help you on the train.

Satipanya Buddhist Retreat
Select: Abiding in the present moment developing equanimity
 

Mike555

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Thanks SoScared, I'm going to watch it over and over again and see if it helps me! i really want to solve this problem already, it drives me crazy, i'll do anything to solve my problem. I don't care about my social anxiety for now.. my top problem is this ocd starring, it's so horrible it made my s.a worse by 10 times more.. this problem started 2 weeks ago omg... eager to do anything, will get my eye checked as well because i see blurry in 1 of my eye and i need eye lense immediately and i can not wait for the doctor..
 

Kiwong

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I've bought a pair of Ray Ban silver aviator glasses. I'm going to hide my eyes from this judgemental world for a while.
 

dead24

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I have this peripheral vision staring and it is absolutely destroying my life. This is 99x worse than social anxiety. I can no longer be close to anyone including my family. This problem makes me avoid people even more. I work in a call center where you sit beside people. We have our own computers and we're about 2.5 ft apart. It's feels horrible when you always make them uncomfortable. They always kind of cover their faces with their hand.
 

Mike555

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I have this peripheral vision staring and it is absolutely destroying my life. This is 99x worse than social anxiety. I can no longer be close to anyone including my family. This problem makes me avoid people even more. I work in a call center where you sit beside people. We have our own computers and we're about 2.5 ft apart. It's feels horrible when you always make them uncomfortable. They always kind of cover their faces with their hand.

SAME here! it's soooooo way worse than social anxiety.. it literally destroyed my life TOO! IDK how to cure it, when i sit in bus station, i can't sit like i was before, i have to look at my phone. i got used to it a bit and discovered it's YOUR BODY LANGUAGE - NERVOUS signs which make the other person nervous.

FOR EXAMPLE: You look straight, then you see someone in your periphal vision, your eyes quickly move away, he notices it as well and looks at your MOVEMENTS! not that you're looking at him.. realising this helped me, for example when i look at a MOVIE, i can do it or some other stuff, but when sitting in the bus station or somebody sits infront of me or stands.. it's nightmare.. i can't do shit about it..


****...... i will work on curing it, i'll do everything, i'm currently working on getting rid of my severe social anxiety, i will see if it helps me.. i need more dopamine in my brain, for that i gotta quit porn addiction, DOPAMINE is the chemical that makes you happy, motivated, energized.. when u have low ammounts (when super addicted to something) u are depressed, can cause social anxiety and much more.. the hard part is QUITTING THIS BULLSHIT, IT'S IMPOSSIBLE! I'm considering having someone in real life to manage me, idk if it's psycholog but it's kinda stupid to approach him and ask him if he can help me with that... suffering LIKE IN HELL!

What would relief the PAIN: Knowning there are real life people close to you that have similar problems! over the internet, seeing that somebody has the same problem doesn't really help! i want to know i'm not freaking alone with this problem in this world!!!!! i want to feel it, not just read through the internet......

I CAN'T BE CLOSE TO MY FAMILY TOO BY the way! when i didn't have this stupid *** problem i could sit in trains, buses, in meals with no problem.....
 
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dead24

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^ Hey man it's nice to have someone who could relate. I never had this problem before. I developed this problem in 2008. I got this behavior when in school I sat beside someone and he was kind of uncomfortable with me so he was staring at me with his peripheral vision then I learned it from him then the rest is history. Before I got this problem I had no problem sitting so close with other people. I was able to watch movies or tv with other people but now everything is lost. With all of my problems avoidant personality disorder, extreme shyness and awkwardness, hyperhidrosis, this ocd staring is the WORST problem I have ever experienced. And I'm afraid that I'll grow old and die with this problem. I have not been to an ocd doctor yet and I'm not sure if they're even aware that this problem exists. My only hope now is a medication that will help me take this anxiety away. I'm feeling a bit suicidal but I never will do that as I still enjoy some other things. Its just so unbelievable that I have acquired this very weird and stressful problem. Have you been to a doctor yet? Maybe they will give you some medication to help alleviate and eventually remove this behavior.
 

Mike555

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^ Hey man it's nice to have someone who could relate. I never had this problem before. I developed this problem in 2008. I got this behavior when in school I sat beside someone and he was kind of uncomfortable with me so he was staring at me with his peripheral vision then I learned it from him then the rest is history. Before I got this problem I had no problem sitting so close with other people. I was able to watch movies or tv with other people but now everything is lost. With all of my problems avoidant personality disorder, extreme shyness and awkwardness, hyperhidrosis, this ocd staring is the WORST problem I have ever experienced. And I'm afraid that I'll grow old and die with this problem. I have not been to an ocd doctor yet and I'm not sure if they're even aware that this problem exists. My only hope now is a medication that will help me take this anxiety away. I'm feeling a bit suicidal but I never will do that as I still enjoy some other things. Its just so unbelievable that I have acquired this very weird and stressful problem. Have you been to a doctor yet? Maybe they will give you some medication to help alleviate and eventually remove this behavior.
when u caught this periphal problem, u had social anxiety in this place?
i'm just asking becoz i wan't to make sure i don't infect other people.. i'm currently in the army and it's nuts.. i don't enjoy anything and i can not talk.. i think i have low dopamine.. because of an addiction i have (not drugs)
DEPRESSION: Low Dopamine, Not Low Serotonin - Dr. Ward Bond's THINK NATURAL

****KKKKKK!!!!!! IDK what to do, i really don't want to infect other people with my freaking problem.. does social guy can get infected by this?? :S (if not, i'll get a big relief)

this problem started since 2014, in the training army, not sure how
 
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