Story of my life

SweetCupcake

Well-known member
No friends
Not had a ‘friend’ in 7 years
Cant leave the house without my mother
Never had a job
Look 12 years old
Can’t drive
Have no social life
Never had a bf
Can’t buy something/walk into a shop by myself
Still nowhere near my goals/dreams
Fat
Ugly
No confidence/self esteem
Blush all the time
Live in a volcano with my mothers bipolar/OCD boyfriend

I am socially retarded and have been that way since I was a child (7)

I have ****ed up genes therefore, even if I did manage to have kids they will probably inherit my families unfortunate genes and be as equally ****ed up as I am.

Getting older and more ****ed up/depressed/socially retarded/suicidal by the day

Last year, I hoped my next birthday would be very different. Well, that birthday is soon approaching and I’m still exactly the same.

No therapy, CBT, medication bull**** will ever ’cure’ me. Like I said, it’s mostly biological, therefore I am destined to be a freak.
 
I don't agree with the 'ugly' comment, you'll have to stop using someone else's photo to prove that!
 

Pacific_Loner

Pirate from the North Pole
Hey, I don't really have any advice to give you, I just felt like answering your post.
First, to tell you that you are not ugly. That is for sure. And I'm not saying that to make you feel better.
For the rest of your list, I don't know since I don't know you.
But the fact that you have f***ed up genes doesn't mean you have to be f***ed up too,
it just means you might have to work harder to get where you want to go.
So now... I guess you have to try real hard and be courageous and stop being scared.
It's no big deal if you fail over and over again, as long as you try to go forward.
Or else you just stay stuck right here.
 

damienJ

New member

Totally not ugly if thats your pix..u sound sooo like me......i have 1 friend but ther an internet friend.......im stuck inside 24/7....i h8 everything about myself.....i h8 being around ppl becaus i think they can tell evrything about me by looking at me....it sux and u r the person feeling it so nomattr how many good things ppl say 2 you and 4 all the good advice its really hard 2 see any lite in the dark......it was hard 4 me evn 2 make this post......i have trust issues and i am beyond help stupid
 

lavender

Well-known member
sorry I might not have anything positive to say, but I wanted to tell you I can identify with a lot of what you wrote. For me, birthdays feel kind of defining. I'm almost 20 and I look back and it feels like I've done nothing.
I think it can get better though, it just takes a long time.
 

honeydippedxo

Well-known member
You can still make an improvement by your birthday! Try being positive and take steps to break out of your comfort zone. Quiet your mind and do your own thing. What's the worst that could happen? Noone is going to judge you harder than you judge yourself. I know its easier said than done but dont let that stop you from trying. One step at a time and things will get better.
 

LovelyAmor

Well-known member
No friends
Not had a ‘friend’ in 7 years
Cant leave the house without my mother
Never had a job
Look 12 years old
Can’t drive
Have no social life
Never had a bf
Can’t buy something/walk into a shop by myself
Still nowhere near my goals/dreams
Fat
Ugly
No confidence/self esteem
Blush all the time
Live in a volcano with my mothers bipolar/OCD boyfriend

I am socially retarded and have been that way since I was a child (7)

I have ****ed up genes therefore, even if I did manage to have kids they will probably inherit my families unfortunate genes and be as equally ****ed up as I am.

Getting older and more ****ed up/depressed/socially retarded/suicidal by the day

Last year, I hoped my next birthday would be very different. Well, that birthday is soon approaching and I’m still exactly the same.

No therapy, CBT, medication bull**** will ever ’cure’ me. Like I said, it’s mostly biological, therefore I am destined to be a freak.

I honesty don't think that you will get anywhere by thinking like this. I feel that most of us are in the situation that we are in is because we created it ourselves. You can to come to a point where you want better. I'm 19 and I can can agree with some of the things you wrote:

-Never had a job
-Can’t drive
-Have no social life
-Never had a bf
::(:

But that doesn't mean that these things won't happen in the future. It's never too late. You have to be willing to try. If you don't try, then how will you ever know what you can do? And you are NOT ugly. There are soooo many people that DO NOT have SP that look 100x worse than you, and don't even look that bad! :D

I didn't receive the proper emotional development when I was a child and that has caused me to have an attachment disorder. I don't feel connected with other people my age. But i'll be d****d if I go through the rest of my life thinking that I can't. If I can, than you can too! The first thing that you can do is start saying positive things about yourself. When you do that you will feel better and it will help your confidence and self-esteem. If you only focus on the negative, it will destroy you, believe me.

I hope that helped and believe me I DO know what you are going through.
 

Interzone

Well-known member
Well, I'm 19...

-Never had a job.
-Never had a gf.
-Never had a social life.
-Never gotten laid.

And nothing seems to be getting better no matter how long I tell myself to keep waiting because things should get better. But I just gotta keep on living, one day things will get better for you and me both. :)
 

I'm Not There

Well-known member
Hey beautiful :)

I'm a guy, but I recognize myself in different aspects of you. I'm almost 21, and until I was 19 I've never had a real girlfriend/regular friends/any social life/goals in my life, was really shy and thought I was ugly.

As of today, I still think I'm ugly and I'm still incredibly shy, but I've made a change in my life. I decided to go study something that I really like. The classes are smaller than university, so it was easier to make some friends. I started going out with them just a bit. A girl from my class had a crush on me (I felt nothing for her, though).

My social life still is far from what I want it to be, but I'm really glad I made that choice. By making small changes in your life, more things can change as well.
 
I'm 20

- Ugly
- No friends
- Had 1 job
- Can drive (not done driving test)
- Never leaves the house
- AvPD, SAD, depression, ocd
 
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