The Awkwardness is killing me.

Hey guys
How's everyone doing.
So I moved to a new school( and to new country) and education system in Canada is way different than where I come from. The English class is the worst, I absolutely hate with my whole being, it has all this stupid pointless presentations and group projects. Talking about group presentations, we're currently reading othello and our teacher wants us to form groups of 2 and analyze chosen segments of the text. The thing I barely know anyone in class, and all the guys I do know already have their groups formed and it's just me. And 2 other people who were absent today and I don't know if I go to class tomorrow she'll be like well :myname: why didn't you say anything if you dont have a group..in front of everyone...and I wouldn't know what to say and I'd just say nothing..and everyone would look at me...Jesus..its unbearable.. I don't what the f*ck to do, I dont wanna go up to my teacher and be like I don't have a group and she says out loud in class: can :myname: be in anyone's group. Oh god even thinking about makes me nervous. The people's eyes on me, their thoughts, i start to imagine what would they think of me, I'm so miserable I can't even find anyone to partner with... God the awkwardness it's slowly killing me...I always try not to care what people say or think of but its so damn hard...the feeling of just standing there and everyone's looking at you...their girls and boys judgemental eyes on you...its makes me wish I was dead...I'm starting to lose myself...I don't want to be defined by others thoughts but it just can't..I'm starting to forget who I am...I'm thinking of skipping English tomorrow but to make matters worse I have a godddamn assignment too...God I don't know what to do...maybe I can give her the assignment after school and be like I didn't feel well so I left. High school f*cking sucks.
I don't have any troubles in classes that I have friends in, but English...oh dear god...
Plz help me...it for tomorrow
Thank you in advance :kickingmyself:

Oh God I've been there. High school was hell. You have my sympathy.

So I was in this situation a few times so I can tell you which was the least horrific outcome.

1) Just being on your own : no not worth it, the entire class spent worrying someone will notice and say something or teacher will react like what you said above. Don't do this.

2) Asking teacher. While in reality, nobody will really gives a crap it feels like everyone does and it feels mortifying. Wouldn't recommend.

3) Sounds like the worst but actually went the best: Pulling a chair over to one of the other groups and just asking can you join them. This worked the best for me. Nobodys going to say no and in my experience they kind of respect you for having the nerve to do it and having the initiative to do it and they're usually really friendly.

I was in a position like this in college. It was a small cafeteria and the class I was in was small, they all went into groups except me I was on my own. Eventually after a few days of being on my own, I just walked up to a bunch of people in my class and asked them could I invite myself to join them for lunch. Im really good friends with them now.

You can do this.

First of all thank you for replying, I really appreciate it.
The thing is 2 or 3 who were absent today are gonna come tomorrow and I'm afraid they're gonna form a group between themselves before I can suggest to group with me. Besides the fact they dont know about the project which makes it more likely they'll group with each other and I'm left alone again and that I don't have any classes with them besides English so I wouldn't be able to tell them before the class.
I would pull up a chair to some group but the Poeple in my class, most of them have known each other since first grades and all and the remaining less newer pople is devided into groups with either the same interest or the same nationality and I can't just pull up a chair and say can I join your group? They'll see me as a **** and again The awkardness and shame is brought upon me :,( God..it sucks to be the new kid..
But thanks for your advices man. Hopefully if I don't kill myself by Tommorow because of the nervousness I need to find a good reason for skipping class

Damn. I feel your pain. Back in high school (and even now in college) I hate doing group work. Most of the time back in high school when the teacher would say to get in groups I would just sit there and just freeze. The teacher almost always put me in a group since I would be left out. After a while of that nonsense, I made a few friends and just grouped with them in that particular class.

Anyways back to your question, try to group yourself with those that haven't made a group yet. Tell them that you haven't found a group and explain to them what the assignment is going to be about. Make sure to have a few suggestions on the subject to make things easier

We had a (stupid) extra credit group assignment in history.... I didn't do it and I just sat there because I don't know anyone in the class and I was too awkward to ask if I could join someone's group. Feels bad

I must add that I'm not always this awkward (anymore) and I usually just join in someone's group and only feel a little shyness. Damn I thought that my shyness was almost gone in most situations but I'm still a bit nervous all the time when there's people around.

Like the others suggested, I would also recommend asking groups directly if you can join rather than asking the teacher to assign you into a group. Most people aren't mean enough to say no.

Also, for group presentations in front of class, I think it helps (at least for me) to remember that most people are concerned and nervous about THEIR OWN presentations and don't care a whole lot about yours (in a good way).