w*n*c*a*m

March 11, 2008
0943

Now my condition is getting worse and I'm getting frustrated already!
I hate waking up in the morning dreading the day of my graduation!
Now I'm actually sick! I am having a sore throat and a headache because
of this STRESS!
And surprises of all surprises, my dad came home yesterday night
and the first thing that he uttered is my graduation! I know he's
just happy for me! but heck! I am now more pressured than ever!!!
He keeps on telling me that I can do it... that he believes in me...
that I am intelligent... heck! i am not a genius for goodness sake!
And when I say to him to stop having great expectations, he just
grins or laughs like it's some kind of a JOKE! Oh please! right now,
i just wanna cry!!!!!! I feel so helpless and trapped and... I don't know!
I can't even cry because they would be all confused and it feels like it's
stupid crying because I would feel more pathetic than ever!
Even our graduation practice makes my stomach roll over!!! This is crazy!!!
What about on the actual day of my graduation??!!! I might faint on
stage!!!! Will somebody do the honor of killing me right now?!!!!

w*n*c*a*m

March 14,2008
1038


Thanks God I'm feeling better now...

Zarrix

It's always interesting to see people expressing their thoughts on these forums. Its not like you can express them anywhere else, so its always good to see. Kinda lets out some steam if you let your thoughts flow to the people who will understand your plight the most.

w*n*c*a*m

Exactly! :P...

w*n*c*a*m

March 18, 2008
639

I just wish that I could be like him someday.

PS I just find it so coincidential because I will
be graduating today!... And Oh! I did smile while
on stage at our graduation practice.

w*n*c*a*m

Just a thought:

I know this topic is far from what this site is all about, but just now, I've
read a lot of things about arguments between God and religion.

You see I believe in God, but I am not for Religion. Yes, I still respect religion (It actually serves as a guide for wisdom and morality) but don't expect me to follow all the rituals that the Religion tells me to do. If I want to worship God, I will do it in my own personal way. But heck! Some people are just so close-minded. For them, not following all those rituals will make you a sinner or a shameful person! Does it mean that if i am not a member of their religion and I do this or don't do this, makes me a sinner? What the heck!
And another thing is that some people are so inclined with their religion that they don't even appreciate the other religion! it's not about Jesus, It's not about Allah or Yahweh or Buddha... it's about the philosophies within that religion that people should appreciate and live.
And if in some instance I question some of my religion's beliefs and rituals, why do people react in a way like, just asking or expressing your doubt makes it a horrible attitude? I mean, there is no perfect religion and man is a thinking being. Isn't it much better if you really know what you believe by asking questions than by just believing it because your religion tells you so.

w*n*c*a*m

March 30, 2008
900

I'm going to miss this site... You see, I'll have to stay in our school dorm for 1 month for our review. So it means, no tv's, no mp3's, no computer's, no mall-ing.... no leisure! It really sucks, but they say it's for my future. (whatever!)... Actually, I even asked permission from our school dean to allow me to stay at my home after the review, but she did not allow me... so I have no choice... Actually, after that bad news... I cried!... I cried my heart out in front of my parents and they we're all laughing at me at the same time. and yeah! I laughed too while crying... because i'm 21 years old, and I wept like a crybaby, just because I'll be away from our home and from my room for 1 month! I really felt sad and ridiculuos at that time. Good thing is, my parents are supportive... Anyway... even if you don't know me... all of you people became a part of my life! I'll miss you

w*n*c*a*m

April 12, 2008
1202
Today is our free day..... and just one week in that dorm is really a hell! I feel like a prison there whose main job is just to study study and study!!! and what really sucks is that our in-house review is extended up to 2 months!!! This is a sabotage!.... I don't hate studying but the idea of staying in a dorm and being obliged to have your review almost 24 hours a day for 2 months is a complete nonsense!... and what i hate most is my perfectionist, bookish, boring, and almost nerdy (if not really nerdy) bestfriend roommate who makes me feel guilty because she always has the drive to review and review!!!... while I am just sleeping! ... plus, my other close friends are just like her!!! .... Yeah! this is for my future... but c'mon! Do I really have to live for two months just facing a book and listening to lectures and eat and sleep? ... even my IPOD doesn't work for me now because I am so distracted with their nerdiness and OC-ness!!!! I can't even sleep well because the light is always on even at night! :evil:

w*n*c*a*m

April 15, 2008
1428

I'm supposed to be in school for the resume of our in-house review but
I decided to just go there tomorrow because I feel so tired now.... I just want to relax my mind and extend my resting days... but heck! My celfone keeps on ringing, my classmate is calling me and I don't wanna answer it! I'm afraid that they might convince me to go in school and would give me added guilt for skipping the review class which would probably change my mind of being absent today.... so there! But I'm getting pissed off with that phone, and I don't wanna turn it off to not make it so obvious that I don't wanna talk to them... but sheesh! It's starting to give me anxiety....

w*n*c*a*m

May 4, 2008

When copying, atleast give some credit.. aka to my sister