Like I mentioned in my other threads (probably), for most of my life, I was a really sexually ignorant person. It was obvious that hitting people, calling people names, or lying were bad. But I didn't know right from wrong when it came to sexual matters.
Anyway, in grade 8, I became really attached to this grade 1 student. Ashamedly, I became obsessed about her. Whenever I walked down the hallway, I would peek into her classroom to look at her without getting caught. During lunch, I would try to play with her. This happened for a couple of months.
I think I was attracted to her because of the innocence that she had to offer. In grade 5, I became really suicidal and depressed, and I still haven't recovered fully from those experiences. Hanging around small children reminded me of the innocence that I had before those dark times. And, on a more morally dubious note, I found her to be cute. Physically cute as well.
Thankfully, I never did anything, physically, that would have seriously robbed her of her life.
Nowadays, I'm more aware about what is right and what is wrong, sexually. I have no interest in small kids now, and I'm not even interested in getting married and having kids.
Does all this make me evil? A threat to society?
Anyway, in grade 8, I became really attached to this grade 1 student. Ashamedly, I became obsessed about her. Whenever I walked down the hallway, I would peek into her classroom to look at her without getting caught. During lunch, I would try to play with her. This happened for a couple of months.
I think I was attracted to her because of the innocence that she had to offer. In grade 5, I became really suicidal and depressed, and I still haven't recovered fully from those experiences. Hanging around small children reminded me of the innocence that I had before those dark times. And, on a more morally dubious note, I found her to be cute. Physically cute as well.
Thankfully, I never did anything, physically, that would have seriously robbed her of her life.
Nowadays, I'm more aware about what is right and what is wrong, sexually. I have no interest in small kids now, and I'm not even interested in getting married and having kids.
Does all this make me evil? A threat to society?