I think a lot of us can relate to how you're feeling right now! First, you're not hopeless. If you're hopeless, than 95% of the people on this forum are hopeless too. So let's just leave it as you're not hopeless :wink:
In school I feel scared and sick too - and as you know, thinking "this is ridiculous! they're not actually judging me" does not help at all.
Are you on medication? I have no experience with medication at all (seeing as 1. I am too young to take it and 2. I'd like to beat this disorder without using medication). But it can help and can be the push you need to start getting over SP.
Unfortunately it's not easy to feel socially confident and impossible to do it overnight. A positive attitude always helps (most annoying thing to hear, I know :roll
but if you think "this is horrible, my life is awful!" (I'm not saying that you are :wink
then there is nil chance that you will get over it.
I'd start with little goals - even so small as trying to look up when you're walking on the street. Eventually, although it is hard, you might be able to progress on to bigger goals. And you can always reward yourself when you complete one
but if you don't, there are other opportunities. And remember to keep a positive mindset even if it feels unnatural.
I hope this helps! Good luck with beating this terrible disorder.