QUEEN_SJO
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OK IM GOING 2 TRY 2 EXPLAIN EVERYTHING IT IS VERY DIFFICULT TRY 2 KEEP UP WITH WHT IM TRYIN 2 SAY HERE
OK I HAVE OCD. I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH IT WHEN I WAS 9 I AM NOW 19. I WAS PRESCRIBED ZOLOFT 4 IT,STARTED @ 50MG. A FEW YEARS LATER WHEN MY HOROMONES CHANGED CUZ OF PUBERTY THEY UPPED IT 2 100MG. IN HIGH SCHOOL MY HOROMONES CHANGED AGAIN CAUSING THE ZOLOFT 2 NOT WORK AS WELL AGAIN SO I WENT UP 2 150MG. JUST LAST YEAR MY DAD DIED FROM AN OVERDOSE OF HEROIN AND MY OCD GOT WORSE SO MY DR. PUT ME ON 200MG. WELL I JUS RECENTLY FOUND OUT THT I AM 3 MONTHS PREGNANT, AND YES MY HOROMONES CAUSED A LOT OF MY OCD SYMPTOMS 2 COME BACK AGAIN. WELL MY DR. TOOK ME OFF MY ZOLOFT BCUZ ITS NOT GOOD 4 THE BABY. NOW SINCE I BEEN ON MEDS I HAV BEEN LIVING A PRETTY NORMAL LIFE AND BEEN ABLE 2 TELL AND TALK 2 PPL ABOUT MY OCD OPENLY AT SCHOOL AND NOW WORK. EVEN THO IVE HAD 2 ALSO COPE WITH ADHD AND AN ABUSIVE MOTHER, AS WEL AS RAISING MY 2 YOUNGER BROTHERS WHO R CURRENTLY 10 AND 13, AND ALSO RAISING MY 2 YEAR OLD CUZN BCUZ HIS MOM LEFT HIM WITH ME BCUZ SHE DES METH AND WE HAVNT HERD 4RM HER IN A LONG TIME. BUT IVE GROWN OUT OF ADHD GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL AND AM NOW A CNA @ A CONVALESCENT CARE CENTER. IM STILL RAISING THE 3 BOYS ALTHO MY MOM IS STARTING 2 HELP OUT NOW. I LOVE MY JOB MOST PPL FIND IT VERY STRESSFULL BUT IT HELPS ME 2 DESTRESS. ALSO I 4GOT 2 MENTION IVE GONE THRO COCAINE ADDICTION, AND WITH OCD PPL HAV ANXIETY PROBLEMS AND MINE WORSENED WITH THE COCAINE. BUT LIKE I SAID EVRYTHNG HAS BEEN MANAGABLE AND IVE WORKED THRO IT EVEN THO I ALWAYS STILL HAD OCD SYMPTOMS BUT IT WAS EASIER 2 HIDE AND DEAL WITH SO I CULD FUNCTION NORMALLY. WELL NEWAYS, NOW ITS ALL COMING BACK WITHOUT MY MEDS. ALTHO I NOTICE I CAN HANDLE IT BETTER THAN WHEN I WAS YOUNGER. NOW @ MY JOB THERE R GROUPS WITH ABOUT 10 RESIDENTS EACH, DEPENDING IF WE R FULLY STAFFED OR NOT, AND WE HAV 3 GROUPS IN FRONT, 3 IN THE MIDDLE, AND 4 IN THE EAST WING. I AM STILL A FLOATER WHICH MEANS I GO 2 WHATEVER GROUP IS AVAILABLE. MOST CNAS DONT GET THEIR OWN GROUPS 4 ABOUT A YR, ALSO DEPENDING ON THE OTHER CNAS QUITTING GETTING FIRED OR ON LEAVE. NEWAYS THE RESIDENTS IN FRONT R ALWAYS CHANGING, CUZ MOST R THERE 4 REHAB SO THEY COME FROM HOSPITAL OR HOME TIL THEY GET STRONG ENUFF THEY STAY 4RM A COUPLE WKS 2 A FEW MONTHS. THEN THEY GO HOME, DIE, OR FIND OUT THEY HAV 2 STAY PERMANANTLY AND GET MOVED 2 A ROOM IN THE MIDDLE OR EAST. SO THE MIDDLE AND EAST R PRETTY REGULAR THINGS DONT CHANGE SO MUCH. IDK IF ITS BCUZ OF MY OCD OR WHAT BUT I DONT LIKE 2 MUCH CHANE. I NEED A ROUTINE EVEN WITH MEDS, I LIK THNGS 2 B PREDICTABLE BUT NOT OVERLY. SO WHN IM IN THE FRONT I TEND 2 GET ANXIETY ATTACKS AND MESS UP A LOT AND B STREESD THE WHOLE SHIFT. IN THE MIDDLE AND EAST IM OK. IM RARELY INT THE FRONT OR MIDDLE THO. SO THE EAST WING IS WHERE IM COMPLETLY COMFORTABLE. I GET ALONG WITH ALL THE OTHER CNAS BUT SINCE IM USUALLY IN THE EAST I AM CLOSER WITH THOSE CNAS AND ALSO HANG OUT WITH THEM OUTSIDE OF WORK. SO U GET THE IDEA OF Y I LIKE BEING IN THE EAST. WELL NOW WITHOUT MY MEDS BEING MOVED 2 THE FRONT 2DAY WAS HORRIFIC 4 ME. I FINALLY CONVINCED ANOTHR CNA AND MY SUPERVISOR 2 SWICH ME 2 THE EAST. OF COURSE 2MOROR IM SUPPOSE 2 B ON THT GROUP IN THE FRONT 2MORO 2. NOW IM HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME RITE NOW BCUZ OF MY OCD AND NO MEDS BUT IM ABLE 2 STILL DO GOOD WORK IN THE EAST BCUZ I NO IT AND ITS LIK HOME 2 ME. WHT SHULD I DO? WHT IF I CANT GO W/O MY MEDS WHT ABOUT THE BABY? WITHOUT MY JOB I HAV NOTHING I NEED IT 2 MAKE MONEY 4 MY FAMILY AND 2 DESTRESS ME AND IT MAKES ME FEEL HAPPY AND LIK IM WORTHY AND CAN ACHIEVE SUMTHNG . IM AT A LOSS. :!: :?:
OK I HAVE OCD. I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH IT WHEN I WAS 9 I AM NOW 19. I WAS PRESCRIBED ZOLOFT 4 IT,STARTED @ 50MG. A FEW YEARS LATER WHEN MY HOROMONES CHANGED CUZ OF PUBERTY THEY UPPED IT 2 100MG. IN HIGH SCHOOL MY HOROMONES CHANGED AGAIN CAUSING THE ZOLOFT 2 NOT WORK AS WELL AGAIN SO I WENT UP 2 150MG. JUST LAST YEAR MY DAD DIED FROM AN OVERDOSE OF HEROIN AND MY OCD GOT WORSE SO MY DR. PUT ME ON 200MG. WELL I JUS RECENTLY FOUND OUT THT I AM 3 MONTHS PREGNANT, AND YES MY HOROMONES CAUSED A LOT OF MY OCD SYMPTOMS 2 COME BACK AGAIN. WELL MY DR. TOOK ME OFF MY ZOLOFT BCUZ ITS NOT GOOD 4 THE BABY. NOW SINCE I BEEN ON MEDS I HAV BEEN LIVING A PRETTY NORMAL LIFE AND BEEN ABLE 2 TELL AND TALK 2 PPL ABOUT MY OCD OPENLY AT SCHOOL AND NOW WORK. EVEN THO IVE HAD 2 ALSO COPE WITH ADHD AND AN ABUSIVE MOTHER, AS WEL AS RAISING MY 2 YOUNGER BROTHERS WHO R CURRENTLY 10 AND 13, AND ALSO RAISING MY 2 YEAR OLD CUZN BCUZ HIS MOM LEFT HIM WITH ME BCUZ SHE DES METH AND WE HAVNT HERD 4RM HER IN A LONG TIME. BUT IVE GROWN OUT OF ADHD GRADUATED HIGH SCHOOL AND AM NOW A CNA @ A CONVALESCENT CARE CENTER. IM STILL RAISING THE 3 BOYS ALTHO MY MOM IS STARTING 2 HELP OUT NOW. I LOVE MY JOB MOST PPL FIND IT VERY STRESSFULL BUT IT HELPS ME 2 DESTRESS. ALSO I 4GOT 2 MENTION IVE GONE THRO COCAINE ADDICTION, AND WITH OCD PPL HAV ANXIETY PROBLEMS AND MINE WORSENED WITH THE COCAINE. BUT LIKE I SAID EVRYTHNG HAS BEEN MANAGABLE AND IVE WORKED THRO IT EVEN THO I ALWAYS STILL HAD OCD SYMPTOMS BUT IT WAS EASIER 2 HIDE AND DEAL WITH SO I CULD FUNCTION NORMALLY. WELL NEWAYS, NOW ITS ALL COMING BACK WITHOUT MY MEDS. ALTHO I NOTICE I CAN HANDLE IT BETTER THAN WHEN I WAS YOUNGER. NOW @ MY JOB THERE R GROUPS WITH ABOUT 10 RESIDENTS EACH, DEPENDING IF WE R FULLY STAFFED OR NOT, AND WE HAV 3 GROUPS IN FRONT, 3 IN THE MIDDLE, AND 4 IN THE EAST WING. I AM STILL A FLOATER WHICH MEANS I GO 2 WHATEVER GROUP IS AVAILABLE. MOST CNAS DONT GET THEIR OWN GROUPS 4 ABOUT A YR, ALSO DEPENDING ON THE OTHER CNAS QUITTING GETTING FIRED OR ON LEAVE. NEWAYS THE RESIDENTS IN FRONT R ALWAYS CHANGING, CUZ MOST R THERE 4 REHAB SO THEY COME FROM HOSPITAL OR HOME TIL THEY GET STRONG ENUFF THEY STAY 4RM A COUPLE WKS 2 A FEW MONTHS. THEN THEY GO HOME, DIE, OR FIND OUT THEY HAV 2 STAY PERMANANTLY AND GET MOVED 2 A ROOM IN THE MIDDLE OR EAST. SO THE MIDDLE AND EAST R PRETTY REGULAR THINGS DONT CHANGE SO MUCH. IDK IF ITS BCUZ OF MY OCD OR WHAT BUT I DONT LIKE 2 MUCH CHANE. I NEED A ROUTINE EVEN WITH MEDS, I LIK THNGS 2 B PREDICTABLE BUT NOT OVERLY. SO WHN IM IN THE FRONT I TEND 2 GET ANXIETY ATTACKS AND MESS UP A LOT AND B STREESD THE WHOLE SHIFT. IN THE MIDDLE AND EAST IM OK. IM RARELY INT THE FRONT OR MIDDLE THO. SO THE EAST WING IS WHERE IM COMPLETLY COMFORTABLE. I GET ALONG WITH ALL THE OTHER CNAS BUT SINCE IM USUALLY IN THE EAST I AM CLOSER WITH THOSE CNAS AND ALSO HANG OUT WITH THEM OUTSIDE OF WORK. SO U GET THE IDEA OF Y I LIKE BEING IN THE EAST. WELL NOW WITHOUT MY MEDS BEING MOVED 2 THE FRONT 2DAY WAS HORRIFIC 4 ME. I FINALLY CONVINCED ANOTHR CNA AND MY SUPERVISOR 2 SWICH ME 2 THE EAST. OF COURSE 2MOROR IM SUPPOSE 2 B ON THT GROUP IN THE FRONT 2MORO 2. NOW IM HAVING A DIFFICULT TIME RITE NOW BCUZ OF MY OCD AND NO MEDS BUT IM ABLE 2 STILL DO GOOD WORK IN THE EAST BCUZ I NO IT AND ITS LIK HOME 2 ME. WHT SHULD I DO? WHT IF I CANT GO W/O MY MEDS WHT ABOUT THE BABY? WITHOUT MY JOB I HAV NOTHING I NEED IT 2 MAKE MONEY 4 MY FAMILY AND 2 DESTRESS ME AND IT MAKES ME FEEL HAPPY AND LIK IM WORTHY AND CAN ACHIEVE SUMTHNG . IM AT A LOSS. :!: :?:
