it's been hard when i tried to go against my personality
don't be hard on yourself, and i have to tell you, doing something as brave as what you did seeing so many new and unfamiliar people is a real triumph
many agoraphobics would only be able to deliver pizza to themselves and a small circle of friends and family (and maybe not even to most of them)
being agoraphobic, i tried to tell myself i could work well with the public in large numbers because my family had a retail store, and i should therefore be good at it
what i ended up doing for 20+ years was being self employed...but while harder to start up, it was better than trying to be someone i was not, even when i wanted to desperately be socially powerful and adept
certain trades and professions where you work alone or in small familiar groups and avoid many different people, as in tourism and retail, is better imho
where i live, the social services has sent people with agoraphobia to school/training to work in a more solitary trade/profession like self employed accountant, bookkeeper, contracts/wills lawyer, researcher, etc knowing that there are many people who won't be a perfect fit for the more numerous retail, big corporate, civil service, military, and service industry jobs
