Anonymous
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I have always been a shy person around people I don't know but at school I was absolutly nuts and was the class clown and every1 new me for being the crazy kid who would do anything for a laugh. After leaving school at 18 I began 2 smoke ALOT of weed and this was a really bad time in my life because I all of a sudden got these evil thoughts in my head that I was worthless and could't cope with life making me feel like a coward. During this period all my nutty fun side dissapeard and It took a huge peice of my personality away from me. I am slowly regaining this huge peice missing from my puzzle and am working hard at trying to regain it. Every time I get drunk this part of me comes to life and I really feel alive again. Does this meen this part of me is still in there somewhere or can it only be my alterd state of mind. I long for inner peace and would appreciate if any1 could tell me of any books or sites that can guide me to inner peace as I feel like I am wasting my life without it.
sorry to rant on I'm new to this forrum but just want to beat my demons once and for all.
thanks
sorry to rant on I'm new to this forrum but just want to beat my demons once and for all.
thanks
