izimbra
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When I was a kid and my parents tried getting me to talk about my grades, I couldn't explain it.
"I can't say."
"You can say it."
"No, I REALLY can't say."
I scared them. And it just made it more pathetic. It was just that the panic became so concrete that nothing could come out. Psychological constipation, lol
Someone tried to explain it to me, saying that if I just breathe, it'll come out. But that's not how it works with my parents. When it turned out that I really couldn't explain my bad grades to my parents my dad threw something and sent me to my room. And then we didn't talk about it again.
I know my problems are because of them or whatever, but I don't know how to get over it. Anything that can cause anxiety such as getting a job, going to school, or moving out just stop happening. I don't think about it. I can't. Well, I know I can, but when this happens I can't. It's just... "hey this is going to cause a lot of shame and embarrassment!"
"I can't say."
"You can say it."
"No, I REALLY can't say."
I scared them. And it just made it more pathetic. It was just that the panic became so concrete that nothing could come out. Psychological constipation, lol
Someone tried to explain it to me, saying that if I just breathe, it'll come out. But that's not how it works with my parents. When it turned out that I really couldn't explain my bad grades to my parents my dad threw something and sent me to my room. And then we didn't talk about it again.
I know my problems are because of them or whatever, but I don't know how to get over it. Anything that can cause anxiety such as getting a job, going to school, or moving out just stop happening. I don't think about it. I can't. Well, I know I can, but when this happens I can't. It's just... "hey this is going to cause a lot of shame and embarrassment!"