Horatio
Well-known member
Hi,
Just thought to share with you all some news that for me is very exciting but will also be a big challenge for me.
Im 22, suffer from depression and socialphobia. Have spent the last 5 months or so living back at home with my parents only doing the occasional bit of work, spending most my time in bed or on the internet. Recently I was offered a 6 month contract that I never thought I could get, a rather unbelievable advance for my young career and an oppurtunity I couldnt turn down despite the doubts and anxieties that all of us with socialphobia have.
The job in itself will be a challenge for me, as well as travelling around the country it also involves moving to base myself in a city where I dont know anyone. The very thought of trying to find somewhere to live etc makes my heart feel like its being squished and my head spin off into neverlands evil twin fantasy world... anxietyland.
I know a lot of people with SP struggle with finding work let alone moving cities and so I want to make sure that you guys know I aint pretending to be no hero here. I havent found some miraculas cure or nothing, I aint brave, hell Im shit scared! I really have jumped into the deep end this time, and for the record I know I cant swim! But I wouldve never been able to forgive myself if I let such an oppurtunity slip by. So very seldom does one get an oppurtunity to do what they love and get paid for it that I couldnt let that bloody SP take that oppurtinity from me. I have no confidence with girls, no confidence making friends, very little confidence even walking down the road sometimes, but I DO have confidence in my passions so I guess that is what Im clinging onto.
I dont have much advice, heck I dont even know if Ive done the right thing here! But I would like to encourage everyone to find what they are passionate about and fight for it.
Those of you who are christians please pray I find friends, those who are buddists please ask Buddha to sort me out some accomidation and those with no fixed religion, some crossing of fingers for good luck wouldnt go amiss!
Anxious Horatio
Just thought to share with you all some news that for me is very exciting but will also be a big challenge for me.
Im 22, suffer from depression and socialphobia. Have spent the last 5 months or so living back at home with my parents only doing the occasional bit of work, spending most my time in bed or on the internet. Recently I was offered a 6 month contract that I never thought I could get, a rather unbelievable advance for my young career and an oppurtunity I couldnt turn down despite the doubts and anxieties that all of us with socialphobia have.
The job in itself will be a challenge for me, as well as travelling around the country it also involves moving to base myself in a city where I dont know anyone. The very thought of trying to find somewhere to live etc makes my heart feel like its being squished and my head spin off into neverlands evil twin fantasy world... anxietyland.
I know a lot of people with SP struggle with finding work let alone moving cities and so I want to make sure that you guys know I aint pretending to be no hero here. I havent found some miraculas cure or nothing, I aint brave, hell Im shit scared! I really have jumped into the deep end this time, and for the record I know I cant swim! But I wouldve never been able to forgive myself if I let such an oppurtunity slip by. So very seldom does one get an oppurtunity to do what they love and get paid for it that I couldnt let that bloody SP take that oppurtinity from me. I have no confidence with girls, no confidence making friends, very little confidence even walking down the road sometimes, but I DO have confidence in my passions so I guess that is what Im clinging onto.
I dont have much advice, heck I dont even know if Ive done the right thing here! But I would like to encourage everyone to find what they are passionate about and fight for it.
Those of you who are christians please pray I find friends, those who are buddists please ask Buddha to sort me out some accomidation and those with no fixed religion, some crossing of fingers for good luck wouldnt go amiss!
Anxious Horatio
