Bree1989
Member
Hi everyone,
I know it's crazy and irrational, but I can't stop obsessing over my boyfriend's ex. He and I have been dating almost three years, and he broke up with her over four years ago. They only dated five months. In the past I've creeped on my boyfriends' exes, but never this much. This girl in particular is really, really active on twitter, so I know that she'll post stuff every day (usually lots of pictures of herself). So I end up creeping her every day.
I know this is just me being insecure and stupid. When I first looked through her pictures, I wasn't a bit threatened. I knew I was prettier than her, and my boyfriend made fun of her once for being so tall and having "thunder thighs". But the more I look at her hundreds of selfies, the more I convince myself that she's way prettier than me, that I'm too short, that she has a better sense of style than me, she's smarter than me, more popular than me, better than me.
She seems to have her life together. She's done school and has a great job, while I'm still in school and have an okay job (even though I'm a year older than her). She seems positive and happy, and she has lots of friends (meanwhile I have no friends). I scrutinize her wardrobe and appearance and have recently started spending all my spare money on revamping my look, even though I've always been a huge tomboy. I want to be pretty enough for my boyfriend. Even though he tells me dozens of times a day that I'm by far the most beautiful girl he has ever been with.
I've always struggled with compulsive behaviour. I was really sick with bulimia as a teenager. And I guess I just really dislike myself in general.
Does anyone have any suggestions of how I can stop being so insecure? I know I should stop looking at her stupid twitter, and that creeping on her is a symptom of my overall insecurity. Ugh. I need to stop.
Sorry for the rant. Any help would be great.
I know it's crazy and irrational, but I can't stop obsessing over my boyfriend's ex. He and I have been dating almost three years, and he broke up with her over four years ago. They only dated five months. In the past I've creeped on my boyfriends' exes, but never this much. This girl in particular is really, really active on twitter, so I know that she'll post stuff every day (usually lots of pictures of herself). So I end up creeping her every day.
I know this is just me being insecure and stupid. When I first looked through her pictures, I wasn't a bit threatened. I knew I was prettier than her, and my boyfriend made fun of her once for being so tall and having "thunder thighs". But the more I look at her hundreds of selfies, the more I convince myself that she's way prettier than me, that I'm too short, that she has a better sense of style than me, she's smarter than me, more popular than me, better than me.
She seems to have her life together. She's done school and has a great job, while I'm still in school and have an okay job (even though I'm a year older than her). She seems positive and happy, and she has lots of friends (meanwhile I have no friends). I scrutinize her wardrobe and appearance and have recently started spending all my spare money on revamping my look, even though I've always been a huge tomboy. I want to be pretty enough for my boyfriend. Even though he tells me dozens of times a day that I'm by far the most beautiful girl he has ever been with.
I've always struggled with compulsive behaviour. I was really sick with bulimia as a teenager. And I guess I just really dislike myself in general.
Does anyone have any suggestions of how I can stop being so insecure? I know I should stop looking at her stupid twitter, and that creeping on her is a symptom of my overall insecurity. Ugh. I need to stop.
Sorry for the rant. Any help would be great.