Rushing to get out of everything?

[Jodie-Tyler]

Hi,
I'm frequently finding myself rushing to get back home, no matter what I'm doing. Even if I'm having fun, which is not most of the time.

But talking to people, I keep my input minimum, and I'm always looking at clocks, watches ECT, to see how long it is until I can go home.

(I always choose a time to be home by, wherever I am, keeps things in order)

 

[Sinopia]

Hi,
I'm frequently finding myself rushing to get back home, no matter what I'm doing. Even if I'm having fun, which is not most of the time.

But talking to people, I keep my input minimum, and I'm always looking at clocks, watches ECT, to see how long it is until I can go home.

(I always choose a time to be home by, wherever I am, keeps things in order)

You kinda sound like me. When I'm at a friends house, I will always look at my watch. My friend thinks it's rather annoying when I do that. It's not that I don't like to be with him, but I just need to make sure for myself that I can't stay too long at his place. I need to go back home on time, to do my own stuff.

 

[Jodie-Tyler]

mmmmm, I get what you mean, I too do that at my friends house.
May I ask how you are with talking to people?...face to face I mean

 

[agoraphobickatie]

i'm like that, too... anytime i'm out of the house, i like to make trips to the mall or grocery store really quick. it's like "well if i'm only in there for five minutes then i'll be okay, i won't feel panicky for too long"... and it's also all in my head, like if i tell my friends "yeah, i'll stop by and say hi" (to make it sound like i'm not gonna stay long), then i'll feel a little less anxious than i would if i were to plan to go somewhere and have to stay until a certain time. i don't really want to get home to do any of my own stuff like y'all said, i just want to get home to 'feel safe' or whatever...

 

[Sinopia]

mmmmm, I get what you mean, I too do that at my friends house.
May I ask how you are with talking to people?...face to face I mean

I really suck at talking with people. Usually I only give most people short answers, but I can talk more when I'm with my friends. Usually I can only talk a lot with my family.

 

[JamieD]

I'm the same. It's strange.

 

[Jodie-Tyler]

i don't really want to get home to do any of my own stuff like y'all said, i just want to get home to 'feel safe' or whatever...

That's exactly how I see my house. It's safe. I can totally relax there, thus why I'm always rushing to get back.

However when I'm there, I don't talk to my family either. Just stay in my room and occasionally trade conversation.