Anonymous
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Can't even go anywhere myself anymore... too afraid to... I live a sad existence. One of my problems is that I look like a 13 year old and am judged for that as well. It seems that whatever situation I have ever been in throughout my entire life, I was always the one picked out for others to give negative attention to. Have no idea why. Quit my dreams for fear that others would judge me... pretty much ruined my whole entire life.. Just strangers causing trouble with me because they probably see my weakness. I don't think I could deal with that again. I choose to stay in my house or drink to overcome my fears. When I drink, I'm able to get so many things done around the house and focus etc. When I don't drink, I sit in depression... sad sad...
Extremely self-conscious wherever I go. If I would just stop focusing on myself and pay attention to what I wanted to get done or the joy that could be had, then things would be easier... but easier said than done.
Extremely self-conscious wherever I go. If I would just stop focusing on myself and pay attention to what I wanted to get done or the joy that could be had, then things would be easier... but easier said than done.