Anonymous
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Hi...
I'm 18 and I left school when I was 12. I don't participate in anything outside of my home. I hate to go outside, it's stressful, draining and it seems pointless.
Some of the reason is because of self consciousness, afraid of what people will think of me etc.
Some of the reason is because it just feels out of my comfort zone. All I want to do is come home and chat online, watch TV, eat, sleep. Maybe I'm just lazy. Maybe I'd never be like this if I never stopped forcing myself to go out. But when I force myself, it builds up and up each day until I snap, and I quit everything. Being inside feels natural and provides me with the space and comfort I need to be happy. I'm no mroe depressed than the average person when I'm at home. I feel my best at home.
The thing is, I have to go out sometimes. Tomorrow, I have to go to the orthodontist. When I have to go out, I can't feel any peace until it's completely over and I know I can stay home for a few more weeks. It's horrible, and I don't want to be like that. I'm fine with prefering being inside, and staying at home the majority of the time, but I want to be able to enjoy going out sometimes. I don't want to feel like it's a stressful, draining, nervous chore.
If anyone has any advice, I'd appreciate it.
I'll pray for us all because it's the only hope I have left.
I'm 18 and I left school when I was 12. I don't participate in anything outside of my home. I hate to go outside, it's stressful, draining and it seems pointless.
Some of the reason is because of self consciousness, afraid of what people will think of me etc.
Some of the reason is because it just feels out of my comfort zone. All I want to do is come home and chat online, watch TV, eat, sleep. Maybe I'm just lazy. Maybe I'd never be like this if I never stopped forcing myself to go out. But when I force myself, it builds up and up each day until I snap, and I quit everything. Being inside feels natural and provides me with the space and comfort I need to be happy. I'm no mroe depressed than the average person when I'm at home. I feel my best at home.
The thing is, I have to go out sometimes. Tomorrow, I have to go to the orthodontist. When I have to go out, I can't feel any peace until it's completely over and I know I can stay home for a few more weeks. It's horrible, and I don't want to be like that. I'm fine with prefering being inside, and staying at home the majority of the time, but I want to be able to enjoy going out sometimes. I don't want to feel like it's a stressful, draining, nervous chore.
If anyone has any advice, I'd appreciate it.
I'll pray for us all because it's the only hope I have left.