marki
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Last summer I had a very mental exhausting cleaning job. There were alot of other young people that worked there and it was so scary for me, everyday whenn i went there i had bad anxiety, like dizziness, weakness in my leggs and exxessive sweating..Now yesterday my boss of that cleaning job called, if i would like to work there and my mom said: 'Sure she would like that very much!' Whenn i heard that i totally freaked out against my parents, i yelled to them that i was absolutely not going to work there, i run to my room and cried for hours..I think i was VERY overeacted but that idea of going back to those people who caused me "anxiety attacks" and nausea and all that stuff.. i just couldn't handle that.. i alreaddy went to a new school were im still very nervous about to go there every day, that's just way enough for me, i cant have that cleaning jod also i would just be even more nervous and totally freak out.. Now im worried about my future, i have some financial problems so i really NEED the money and i just can't figure a job that isn't emotional exhausting for me. I also don't want my parents to hate me even more then they alreaddy do by not having a job.. i just don't know what to do. What do you think should i just take that job?? Maybe i'll never be able to have a job again, b/c there's nothing available anymore..
On such days I wish I could just switch my mind off ..
On such days I wish I could just switch my mind off ..