Hey guys thanks for your replyes and sorry for your sad storyes.
It's hard to be happy and nothing will gonna change that thing and anything has an ENDING in this life but that is how is suppose to be. Nothing will gonna change that.
END is a new beginning isn't so?! So i will try to be happy, i will try to live the life in present and stop thinking in past or in future. If i spend my time thinking at my past or worrying about future i can't enjoy the present and time goes by me and then i realize that i even "lived" .
I will just focus about doing the right thing at time, doing what i think is good for me not what everybody else doing or what they think i should do . If i will make a mistake i will try o fix it quickly somehow. If doesn't work i will be fine coz i will know that i tryed the best .
I just say to myself that people who really care about me will find a way to stay in touch with me and that true friends are forever so i don't have to do anything to keep people in my life. Who wanna spend time with me is welcome and who don't is free to go.
Yeah and important : stop worring so much and stop doing things that decrease my self esteem. And start loving myself ( sounds weird?! ) at least to be loved by ME coz i'm not so sure that anybody will give me love .... :?
Loving yourself is very important. You should try that too. If u love yourself u realise what is really important for you and that will keep you motivated to "fight" against anyting and to fight against SP/SA!
When u are down try to focus about your hapiness. If u have to do a (GOOD) thing to be happy then try your best in that thing.
Writed here seems to be easy and good. :?
I feel much better now that i write those thoughts on a public forum.
I hope all of you will find a way to be happy and rise up when you'r down.