christa
Well-known member
I'm such a ****ing loser.
I am a member of a group on meetups. I am meant to go to a meetup right now, it was just to go to a movie and have dinner later...but instead I had to call the group leader and pull out because I started to feel sick, scared and started crying over the 'what if's' now I feel even worse that I am missing out. I haven't met these people. They are shy and have SA too but I am still scared.
I am trying to make an effort to get off the computer because I spend too much time online it as it already is but because of bad experiences of joining groups and meeting people I am scared I won't fit in, get picked on, won't connect to people etc etc. I try to be positive and it still doesn't work.
I am in tears and have a headache, i can't ****ing take this anymore. I wish I was dead.
I am a member of a group on meetups. I am meant to go to a meetup right now, it was just to go to a movie and have dinner later...but instead I had to call the group leader and pull out because I started to feel sick, scared and started crying over the 'what if's' now I feel even worse that I am missing out. I haven't met these people. They are shy and have SA too but I am still scared.
I am trying to make an effort to get off the computer because I spend too much time online it as it already is but because of bad experiences of joining groups and meeting people I am scared I won't fit in, get picked on, won't connect to people etc etc. I try to be positive and it still doesn't work.
I am in tears and have a headache, i can't ****ing take this anymore. I wish I was dead.