what are your mornings like?

defiance

defiance

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My mornings are always the same, they are soul crushingly painful. When I wake up, I am greeted by fear, anxiety, depression, and a strong urge to want to kill myself. I have tried many routines over the years to change this but I just can't get out of this jam. About 2 hours after I have woken up, some of those emotions decrease by a very small amount but they are still there and kicking my @ss. I was wondering if anyone else can relate to this?
 
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Mikazuki1590

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Yes. That's how I feel every time I wake back up. It's almost scary how accurately you just described my own feelings. I know it sounds awful but I have at times wished I'd just pass away in my sleep. It varies on the day though. I do indeed want to live but some days, I'm so overwhelmed by my thoughts that I just want my mind to stop so I don't have to think anymore.

I have bad depression and anxiety from mistakes In the past and have self hatred sometimes. Even though those close to me tell me I'm too hard on myself, the feelings remain for now. I do know that I'm a good person & that good people can make all kinds of mistakes brought on by weaknesses but idk, maybe they're right & I am just too hard on myself.

Anyway, yea I can relate. That's usually how it goes for me when I awake and then the feelings shrink down to just needling feelings but they are still bothersome & I have to talk to someone several times during the day. Luckily I have a great family, though.
 
AtTheGates

AtTheGates

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my mornings drag on for about 2 hours of my body telling me to go back to sleep until eventually my brain is like "ok, he's not going back to sleep. just deal with it" lol
 
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Hot_Tamale

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I thought I could drown my demons underneath the waves...the REM waves that are characteristic of deep sleep at night where they can't touch me and I am in control. But I wake up and realize my demons know how to swim and are still there. So I drown them in sweet, sugary bliss. I eat pop tarts and sweet cereals, not the fiber/plant laden breakfasts that make me sh*t out sawdust 4 hours later. That seems to shut my demons up. But when they come back they do with vengeance. Its a good thing I work at a restaurant that sells cookies and brownies though so I can feel good again during the day.
 
Pacific_Loner

Pacific_Loner

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Well seeing how everyone's morning sound miserable, I'm going to sound like an alien. There is 2 types of mornings for me, work days and week end.

Work days: I wake up usually with my alarm at 6:30, I feel slightly annoyed but overall ok, I eat breakfast, fix myself and go to work, the whole thing takes exactly 1h.

Then there is the week end mornings. I wake up without an alarm, around 7, usually happy because I have 2 entire days to do whatever I want and not talk to anyone. I'm usually in a hurry to get up because I don't want to waste this precious free time sleeping when I don't need any more sleep. Then I will either jump in my car and go on an adventure, or I will go on a walk, buy the newspaper, fix myself some coffee and breakfast and eat it by the window while choosing what I'm going to do for the rest of the day.

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Graeme1988

Graeme1988

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defiance said:
My mornings are always the same, they are soul crushingly painful. When I wake up, I am greeted by fear, anxiety, depression, and a strong urge to want to kill myself. I have tried many routines over the years to change this but I just can't get out of this jam. About 2 hours after I have woken up, some of those emotions decrease by a very small amount but they are still there and kicking my @ss. I was wondering if anyone else can relate to this?
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If you made this post exactly 2 years ago, my answer would've been an emphatic f**kin' "Yes!" But quite a lot has changed for me within the last year. So... :idontknow:

It depends. If I wake up and have listen to my mum complain about everything, from her knee being sore, to hating the town where we've lived my whole life, to just hating her life generally. If I'm greeted by aw that in the morning then the rest o' my day will be shite. :thumbdown:

Though, lately, I've kinda been planning out my next day in my head, as I settling down for bed. Like stuff I need to get done and can't keep putting off. And having a hobby that allows me to be creative without over thinking this definitely helps give me a reason not to stay in bed all day.
 
Kiwong

Kiwong

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Lately, I lay awake in fear. I can't go to sleep, and when I do I turn from side to side. And then I am wide from about 3:00am. Fearing going to work, fearing going to shops, fear that my world such as it is will come crashing down around me. The problems of my waking life visit me now in nigthmares. Sometimes I think it amazing when I hear morning birds starting to sing, and light of a new day coming through the blinds. I have survived to another day.
 
theoutsider

theoutsider

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Pacific_Loner said:
Well seeing how everyone's morning sound miserable, I'm going to sound like an alien. There is 2 types of mornings for me, work days and week end.

Work days: I wake up usually with my alarm at 6:30, I feel slightly annoyed but overall ok, I eat breakfast, fix myself and go to work, the whole thing takes exactly 1h.

Then there is the week end mornings. I wake up without an alarm, around 7, usually happy because I have 2 entire days to do whatever I want and not talk to anyone. I'm usually in a hurry to get up because I don't want to waste this precious free time sleeping when I don't need any more sleep. Then I will either jump in my car and go on an adventure, or I will go on a walk, buy the newspaper, fix myself some coffee and breakfast and eat it by the window while choosing what I'm going to do for the rest of the day.

Yup...
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Hi Pacific_Loner! I'm glad to see I'm not the only one who's like that. I feel the same about the differences between the weekdays and the weekends. Mostly, I feel the weekends are full of potential even if I usually don't wind up doing anything all that significant. It's the potential that makes me happy. The weekdays are okay although I admit this is where my I've become most aware of my anxiety. Before, I used to work at really high pressure jobs and I would dread having to go in and face another day even though I was relatively upbeat in the AM. My current job is really low pressure and for once, I'm surrounded by good, supportive people. Nevertheless, I still find myself with anxiety in the morning. I guess it's a residual effect of all the previous years where I've had reason to be anxious. Now, it usually dissipates after I get to work and that's just fine by me.

I do tend to wake in the middle of the night sometimes with anxiety but that's when I think about mistakes I've made in the past and situations that I feel I didn't handle well. That's a completely different thing altogether though.
 
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theslowesthand

theslowesthand

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My mornings are alright at present. I go back to sleep a few times after awaking. Then i get up when i feel like it. Not long ago i'd be stuck in bed for days on end with depression. Still nothing really to get up for, but at least i do get up each day (usu early afternoon), and get the "basics" done, if nothing else.
 
Pacific_Loner

Pacific_Loner

Pirate from the North Pole
theoutsider said:
Hi Pacific_Loner! I'm glad to see I'm not the only one who's like that. I feel the same about the differences between the weekdays and the weekends. Mostly, I feel the weekends are full of potential even if I usually don't wind up doing anything all that significant. It's the potential that makes me happy. The weekdays are okay although I admit this is where my I've become most aware of my anxiety. Before, I used to work at really high pressure jobs and I would dread having to go in and face another day even though I was relatively upbeat in the AM. My current job is really low pressure and for once, I'm surrounded by good, supportive people. Nevertheless, I still find myself with anxiety in the morning. I guess it's a residual effect of all the previous years where I've had reason to be anxious. Now, it usually dissipates after I get to work and that's just fine by me.

I do tend to wake in the middle of the night sometimes with anxiety but that's when I think about mistakes I've made in the past and situations that I feel I didn't handle well. That's a completely different thing altogether though.
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Yeah I feel exactly the same. I've been at the same work place for a couple of years now and everyone is really supportive and my boss tells me he appreciates my work all the time, but only one little mistake can ruin all your confidence for days and weeks. I would never survive in a work place where people don't like me. Thank God for the week end so we can forget about all that bullshit for 48h
 
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brightordinary

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My mornings are always easy. I wake up early nowadays to avoid cramming which makes me feel uneasy. I started a new routine and I feel that this is what I needed all this time. I used to be so used up early in the morning.
 
Miserum

Miserum

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Wake up and immediately read local, national, and global news while drinking a big glass of water. Then I'll blend and down a mix of fruit and vegetables and do the regular hygienic stuff. I'm in between jobs right now, but that's generally the gist of my mornings regardless.
 
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