What I did was unforgivable

Goddammit, I keep on saying to myself.

I've been bottling up my self hatred for most of the summer, because I believed that I didn't deserve to release it in a constructive way. Now there's these very mean spirited people from my old school. One day, I completely lost it, and I facebooked those people and insulted them in the lowest ways imaginable. I called their parents deadbeats, asked them if they were ever abused in their lives, made jokes about Alzheimer's running in their family because they forgot about how awful they were, and so on.

Right now, to say the least, I wish I hadn't done that. I can't change people. Nobody can really change people.

I don't understand what you tried to accomplish by insulting them.

Well, one of my closest friends basically told me to **** the people who try to screw me over. I try so hard to be someone I'm not for other people. So I took his advice to heart, and I let those people have it.

So what did said people say back to you?

well if insulting people is unforgivable, I am sooooo screwed !! I have people say they would love to watch me fed to lions !! The other web site banned me for being mean, But that means nice, they hate anything positive there. But not before I got another member there to move in with me, she is still here and we are engaged now.

My point is you never know what the future holds, don't beat yourself-up. Make appologies and it might suprize you that people can understand psychotic episodes from time to time, they have them too you know ?