aftermidnight
Well-known member
No SA is alike, as I can now truly appreciate after spending not even a week on this forum.
Personally, my root problem is probably not being a quick-on-my-feet thinker when I'm talking. I can't organize my thoughts and put together meaningful sentences at the same speed that my lips move. If you asked me to explain how the game blackjack (a game I am familiar with) works, I would have a hard time converting my understanding of how it works into words - as a result, you would hear from me a lot of "ahhhs" and "you knows," there would be some silences when I pause to think, and the end result would probably be me feeling a bit embarrassed, knowing that you would now not know anymore about the game of blackjack than you did before I started talking.
Because of this problem, I lack confidence in explaining things to people and thus have trouble telling stories, giving presentations, advising people, etc, etc... The problem is worsened when people truly are (not just irrational thinking on my behalf) more critical of what I'm saying, e.g. a potential employer (during an interview), a professor or current employer (during a presentation), a potential girlfriend (at first meeting or while chatting as acquaintances), or at essentially any time when I am the centre of attention (and, thus, many people are attentive to my words).
On the positive side, I have no actual fear of people - quite the contrary. I love chatting in-person with another person or maybe two or three other people, and I don't mind making small talk with strangers, though I don't like it either. I am a good listener and love hearing others' stories, while I occasionally throw in my own little bit of input. As such, a lot of my friends are extroverts: I can just sit back and listen to them, while they enjoy freely spewing out what they feel they need to say. Furthermore, I actually prefer to have people around, even strangers. When I moved cities to go to a different university, I chose to live with roommates whom I initially did not know so as to not be alone (also, it's cheaper that way). I've worked as a cashier - no anxiety there whatsoever. So long as I don't have to do a lot of talking at one time, I'm fine.
I don't come across as shy, and most of the people I know probably wouldn't even describe me as such (though they also wouldn't describe me as an extrovert/social butterfly either). And I've never even told my family that I have SA; I never really felt the need to (and they've never suspected me of having it).
What is your SA like?
Personally, my root problem is probably not being a quick-on-my-feet thinker when I'm talking. I can't organize my thoughts and put together meaningful sentences at the same speed that my lips move. If you asked me to explain how the game blackjack (a game I am familiar with) works, I would have a hard time converting my understanding of how it works into words - as a result, you would hear from me a lot of "ahhhs" and "you knows," there would be some silences when I pause to think, and the end result would probably be me feeling a bit embarrassed, knowing that you would now not know anymore about the game of blackjack than you did before I started talking.
Because of this problem, I lack confidence in explaining things to people and thus have trouble telling stories, giving presentations, advising people, etc, etc... The problem is worsened when people truly are (not just irrational thinking on my behalf) more critical of what I'm saying, e.g. a potential employer (during an interview), a professor or current employer (during a presentation), a potential girlfriend (at first meeting or while chatting as acquaintances), or at essentially any time when I am the centre of attention (and, thus, many people are attentive to my words).
On the positive side, I have no actual fear of people - quite the contrary. I love chatting in-person with another person or maybe two or three other people, and I don't mind making small talk with strangers, though I don't like it either. I am a good listener and love hearing others' stories, while I occasionally throw in my own little bit of input. As such, a lot of my friends are extroverts: I can just sit back and listen to them, while they enjoy freely spewing out what they feel they need to say. Furthermore, I actually prefer to have people around, even strangers. When I moved cities to go to a different university, I chose to live with roommates whom I initially did not know so as to not be alone (also, it's cheaper that way). I've worked as a cashier - no anxiety there whatsoever. So long as I don't have to do a lot of talking at one time, I'm fine.
I don't come across as shy, and most of the people I know probably wouldn't even describe me as such (though they also wouldn't describe me as an extrovert/social butterfly either). And I've never even told my family that I have SA; I never really felt the need to (and they've never suspected me of having it).
What is your SA like?