As a person who has been cursed with this awful social-anxiety disorder - I continue to struggle mightily with many forms of "excess" scrutiny - particularly if that scrutiny appears to be negative in nature. I mean, the last thing that we SAD sufferers want or need are tangible signs that we somehow "stand out" because of our condition; that there is something about us that raises people's antennae to the point where they are compelled to look at us more closely - or an a more prolonged manner - than they otherwise would. Yet - that is exactly what I often seem to get; extra scrutiny of a negative or "suspicious" nature. I generally have a horrible time coping with this unfair scrutiny - coping with the fact that my misfortunes in life seem to lead to a more difficult time in public as far as absorbing the "penetrating gazes" of others.
Of course, this scrutiny only exacerbates the symptoms of my SAD, and leads to intense unpleasant feelings of frustration and indignation. I can feel defeated...a victim of a cruel reality where I seem to encounter the very thing that I dread. I mean, here I am - trying to venture out into the world - only to encounter such discouraging "feedback" from people. No wonder I'm so reclusive.
I seem to internalize such reactions from others in an awful way - I seem to allow it to "define" me to a certain extent. And I feel resentful that people are rude enough and/or paranoid enough to openly regard me so harshly and/or suspiciously. When you have the problems that I do, it seems that you often get the worst of people - their rudeness, their wariness, their standoffishness, etc..
Can anyone relate? Do you feel that your problems often attract extra scrutiny? Do you encounter situations in which you feel uncomfortably observed? Do you think that people are sometimes more suspicious of you because of your anxiety, awkwardness, "quietness", etc.? Any examples of such situations?
Of course, this scrutiny only exacerbates the symptoms of my SAD, and leads to intense unpleasant feelings of frustration and indignation. I can feel defeated...a victim of a cruel reality where I seem to encounter the very thing that I dread. I mean, here I am - trying to venture out into the world - only to encounter such discouraging "feedback" from people. No wonder I'm so reclusive.
I seem to internalize such reactions from others in an awful way - I seem to allow it to "define" me to a certain extent. And I feel resentful that people are rude enough and/or paranoid enough to openly regard me so harshly and/or suspiciously. When you have the problems that I do, it seems that you often get the worst of people - their rudeness, their wariness, their standoffishness, etc..
Can anyone relate? Do you feel that your problems often attract extra scrutiny? Do you encounter situations in which you feel uncomfortably observed? Do you think that people are sometimes more suspicious of you because of your anxiety, awkwardness, "quietness", etc.? Any examples of such situations?