Why am I afraid to be alone?

I get really depressed when I'm alone.

I don't panic or anything..

But This bolt extreme bordom and loneliness

Has something happened to me before that triggers this feeling today? Because I don't remember anything..

I have some agoraphobia but I can still go out .. I feel lonely very easily

Maslow illustrates our fundamental needs in the form of a pyramid, with first the most basic needs, as food, sleep and shelter, followed by the need to be around other people, to feel loved, to love and to have a sense of community.

It's normal to feel those urges... we aren't meant to be alone, isolated...

When I'm in public, I don't want to be alone because I worry that someone/people will bully me or talk about me. In high school, I need to sit with 1 or more friends for lunch. If I don't have anyone to sit with, I escape from the cafeteria and hide.

Also, women seem to have a big issue about being alone, especially during lunch or dinner time. I remember 3 years ago when I was eating lunch by myself, a woman sitting at the next table started telling another guy, "Why is she sitting alone?" I thought that was an odd question because there were other guys who sit alone but she had to talk about me instead. Maybe it's because society expects girls to be very social and always surrounded by people.

So now, I don't go to restaurants or other public places alone (unless it's some place like jury duty, which I have no choice).

Im actually startinb go really enjoy being single and alone. Most of my friends have girl friends or wive and are now expecting kids. They have to work around them in order to do the things they want to do, if I want to sit around and play gams fr 8 hours straight, no one cares or complains, when their kids are born and theyre exhausted from staying up to take care of them Im just going to say "hey, you did this to yourself, I dont wanna hear and bitching"

Sure I still have times where I feel alone, but most of the time, Im very happy about it, the thing that irritates me the most is othe people are more worried about me being single the I am and make it their mission to tell me how I NEED a girlfriend.

Also, if there are big mistakes in my rant, I have a cut on my index finger, so typing is quite difficult.