They look at me when I don`t say anything. They want me to say something and they get mad at me or something and they say that I was rude to them. I don`t know what to say my mind goes blink. I try to say something. I don`t like being like this I really try to change but it seem like no matter how hard I try to say something I can`t there just is not nothing up there.what does normal people talk about. It seem like some times I freeze and other times I just don`t know what to talk about. They don`t won`t to hear me when I try to talk about what social phobia is and they are rude to me saying I was rude to them. does any one else get this. why do I get treated like the bad guy because of SA.
i think it happens to most of us. people don't understand/believe what they don't experience 1st hand. others even consider SA a myth. it's truly frustrating. maybe the best we could do is to accept ourselves completely (negatives included). these people don't know us. they're not valid judges of our character. we must also remember that whatever people say or think is not our problem. let them stress about it. let's not stress about them stressing about us. that's too much to think (not to mention the fact that it's highly unlikely their obsessing about anything other than themselves). even the seemingly confident people worry about their image as well. they're no different, only a little less intense with self-criticism. where we worry about how others perceive us, they do too. so chances are, we wouldn't linger in their minds for long periods. they're not any braver than we are, and they're certainly not any freer from troubles than we are.
don't feel bad about yourself if you have nothing to contribute in a conversation. maybe you simply have no opinion of the subject, and it's ok. don't seek idea where it cannot be found. stand your ground and be comfortable about it. it's better than saying something you don't mean for the sake of having something to say, which, by the way, is what most people do. you don't exist for their pleasure. don't change or hate yourself for their sake. you're not the bad guy. it's either they think you're a bad guy, or you think they think you're a bad guy. both are mind-created. they're not real. only you know who you are. other people's opinions are irrelevant.
