FriendlyShadow
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So, yesterday was my brother's birthday and my older sister out of nowhere asks me "why are you so quiet?" First of all, why can't some people understand that if I"m quiet, it just means I don't feel like talking, listening to what others say, or just thinking about something? Why do some people think it's a crime to be nice and when people aren't usually socializing? As for her little remark, I try to shrug it off, laugh about it as if it were some joke, but what I feel in the inside, I feel really frustrated and I just want to turn invisible.:
: I wonder how my sister feel if I told her in front of everybody how loud she was and that she never shuts up. I don't want to do that though because then I'll come across as disrespectful and mean. So, it's cool if she flat out tells me in front of everybody how quiet I am and even multiply asking why I am being quiet(which I don't think is necessary) or even telling me I'm too quiet, but if I were to tell her she's being loud or shut up, then I'll be looked down on and people will probably think I'm a jerk face. It's irritating! I don't know why she feels the need to tell me I'm quiet all the time. It might not be the same as a person calling me ugly or fat, but being called quiet is certainly not a compliment either. I did tell her something like "Oh, thank you" or "Yes, I love you too, Chris." But honestly, what I really did want to say was"Oh, I've been told that, but thanks for pointing that out" or "Because you never stop talking". But, I thought no, I'll just let it slide like I always do because it's always bound to happen every time she visits our house or if we go to her house or any other area. Can she not understand that I just don't feel like talking?! And not only that, but she had to bring it up again because we were jokingly talking about excrement and I wanted her to change the subject(because I think it was a little too much), but then here she goes saying "Well, you don't say anything. What do you want to talk about, pee?" I just thought to myself, you really want to go down that road, Chris? Anyways, I feel like every time she does this to me, I want to rip my whole hair out. I mean(to be honest)... it's just like asking somebody Why are you so fat, Why are you so short, Why are you so loud, Why are you so hot, ect. That gets annoying after awhile. Maybe I should just tell her I have dyspraxia(since she doesn't know obviously) and just end this stupid problem. Even better, why not just tell her this secret I've been keeping from her and these people that are around so it'll be more embarrassing. If she was ever placed in my shoes ,about how all of those kids treated me in school, being rejected and called quiet all the freaking time, maybe she understand how I felt. Or maybe she won't, because she'll never understand what I've been through and she'll always try to change me for who I am. Another thing that annoys be about her, is that every time I do try talk to her, she's the one giving me short responses and giving me at least one or two sentences. So, who is she to judge about my shyness if she can't hold a conversation with me? I don't understand her. And honestly, I think she does this because she thinks she is better than me and only cares about herself. Also, why tell me I'm quiet when I already know I am and I know myself better than anyone else? Does she think asking me why I'm quiet is and telling me I'm too quiet is going to help me open up more? I guess to her it does. -_- Plus, it's none of her business about me not socializing. I think she has to understand one day that if a person is quiet, it just means that they don't feel like talking or it could be any other problem they might be thinking of. Now, I could possibly understand if she called me quiet if I didn't respond to anyone's questions, or not saying an ENTIRE word to anyone and looking depressed, but I think she is just asking for it to be honest. Her telling me I'm quiet once is enough, I don't need to be reminded of my shyness everyday I go to see her like some tape recorder.
: I wonder how my sister feel if I told her in front of everybody how loud she was and that she never shuts up. I don't want to do that though because then I'll come across as disrespectful and mean. So, it's cool if she flat out tells me in front of everybody how quiet I am and even multiply asking why I am being quiet(which I don't think is necessary) or even telling me I'm too quiet, but if I were to tell her she's being loud or shut up, then I'll be looked down on and people will probably think I'm a jerk face. It's irritating! I don't know why she feels the need to tell me I'm quiet all the time. It might not be the same as a person calling me ugly or fat, but being called quiet is certainly not a compliment either. I did tell her something like "Oh, thank you" or "Yes, I love you too, Chris." But honestly, what I really did want to say was"Oh, I've been told that, but thanks for pointing that out" or "Because you never stop talking". But, I thought no, I'll just let it slide like I always do because it's always bound to happen every time she visits our house or if we go to her house or any other area. Can she not understand that I just don't feel like talking?! And not only that, but she had to bring it up again because we were jokingly talking about excrement and I wanted her to change the subject(because I think it was a little too much), but then here she goes saying "Well, you don't say anything. What do you want to talk about, pee?" I just thought to myself, you really want to go down that road, Chris? Anyways, I feel like every time she does this to me, I want to rip my whole hair out. I mean(to be honest)... it's just like asking somebody Why are you so fat, Why are you so short, Why are you so loud, Why are you so hot, ect. That gets annoying after awhile. Maybe I should just tell her I have dyspraxia(since she doesn't know obviously) and just end this stupid problem. Even better, why not just tell her this secret I've been keeping from her and these people that are around so it'll be more embarrassing. If she was ever placed in my shoes ,about how all of those kids treated me in school, being rejected and called quiet all the freaking time, maybe she understand how I felt. Or maybe she won't, because she'll never understand what I've been through and she'll always try to change me for who I am. Another thing that annoys be about her, is that every time I do try talk to her, she's the one giving me short responses and giving me at least one or two sentences. So, who is she to judge about my shyness if she can't hold a conversation with me? I don't understand her. And honestly, I think she does this because she thinks she is better than me and only cares about herself. Also, why tell me I'm quiet when I already know I am and I know myself better than anyone else? Does she think asking me why I'm quiet is and telling me I'm too quiet is going to help me open up more? I guess to her it does. -_- Plus, it's none of her business about me not socializing. I think she has to understand one day that if a person is quiet, it just means that they don't feel like talking or it could be any other problem they might be thinking of. Now, I could possibly understand if she called me quiet if I didn't respond to anyone's questions, or not saying an ENTIRE word to anyone and looking depressed, but I think she is just asking for it to be honest. Her telling me I'm quiet once is enough, I don't need to be reminded of my shyness everyday I go to see her like some tape recorder.
