Feels like I'm fading away

Ren Koutaisou

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Family doesn't spend time together, don't get phone calls, no girlfriend, no friends, can't stand up for myself, can't speak to people, I literally don't talk to anyone. I don't have a backbone.

I don't know what to do. I have no way out. Can't discuss it with anyone. I find it easy to think about dying now, but I am too scared to try to kill myself, so that's not an option either. I feel like i'm breaking apart
 
i know exactly how you feel since im going throught the same thing as you are, the thought of basically feeling expendable beacause you are so anonymous, no real connections with people because you may be incapable of it, its no surprise if you walk out the door and feel like your own opinion doesnt matter anywhere. You need to get out before your mind snaps, it was too late for me when that happened and there is no turning back when it does since only a lucky few can. My advice would be just to find an outlet, some place you can be your own true self without being hindered by the outside world. All i can say is that there are options for your problem but you gotta keep it together and make yourself make it happen. peace
 

dream

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I'm also going through the exact same thing. Feel free, to pm me if you would like to talk
I'm a good listener.
 

dead24

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I have the exact same feeling.Its hard for me to have peace of mind.
I always worry,feel uncomfortable and awkward especially at school.
My life feels like an impending doom.
 

cobalt_bluester

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hi. first of all, let me say how sorry I am that you're feeling this way. If you haven't done so already, I would recommend that you book an appointment to see a doctor and get them to put you on some medication, and perhaps refer you for some therapy such as CBT. These two things could really help improve things for you.
 
same here.. the only thing that can help at this moment are pills.. later on therapy.. but now pills...ur to screwed up at the moment for some body to tell u otherwise... :)
 

Aru_Sarutobi

Active member
SAME HERE,I wish that I could just live in a forest or something, or go to a private school rather than a public where there is a hundred people walking in the hallway at the same time during the bell that I don't even know that look at me and point at me lol, its frustrating trying to stay happy the whole entire day when I have to go to school, not only that, but to me, school was made for extroverts, and I am a introvert, and people automatically assume that since I am quiet, that I am crazy, Its annoying and unnecessary.


p.s. I have school tomorrow, NOOOOOO
 

itay

Active member
i know this sounds ackward, but sometimes it's better to be invisible rather than visible and picked on!
 

CPA23

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Guys please listen, I know it is very hard on this bumpy and rocky road that we call life. However, we can't give up no matter what. You really have to dig deep into yourself to find a way to keep on going. I go through those same feelings of angst and anguish that you guys go through. Sometimes I'll cry when I'm by myself because I would be so nostalgic about how my life used to be. I am so sad now because from the ages of 6-11, I was so happy. I was living my life so freely and I didn't have any major insecurities. I'm now 25 and I just wish that I was happy like I was then. It just seems like after I became a teenager, things really began to change. I became apprehensive, very insecure, and just had this detachment from my peers. I was teased a little, and I guess that was my way of protecting myself. Unfortunately, this led me to be a social misfit as I didn't go to any dances, proms, games, or anything social all during my high-school years.

I know I kinda went off topic, but my point is that I am still here. I do struggle with certain things I my life, but so does everybody. I just thank God that He still gives me the strength to try to be more confident and be less doubtful of myself and my capabilities. Find some motivation in your life and get out there and grab what's rightfully yours! Tell yourself that you are worth something and nobody is above you. You do have self-worth and value and know that!!
 
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